my eyes are wet, and i feel like shit and i've been so happy and so good for so long now. life has been good, really good. i've learned so much about myself and acceptance this year. i have been truely happy this month. i guess that has to change. i guess that has to end ( Read more... )

i wrote two full journals while i was in denmark. i can look back any day and see what i was doing, seeing, feeling a year ago. this time last year i had just moved in with my 'new' family. after months of loneliness i felt accepted for me and experienced so much joy. i finally had close friends in my grade and was becoming apart of my sisters ( Read more... )

stupid fight with my mom. i do think youre close minded. i don't think your accepting. i think your totally discriminatory and stuck in your ways. and most days i really do hate being around you. i hate that when i upset you and you get angry i can't yell back because you get worse. i just shrivel. i can never express anything to you because youre ( Read more... )

Oh this song, oh this weekend... I don't want to go back to reality: "If there's love ( Read more... )

this week has been absolutely crazy. i feel like this little puddle, that everyone just walks through and gets aggrivated. then there are the boys. a few hard hits this week. i'll hang in there. i can't believe SATs tomorrow. i just imagined i would somehow be more prepared when i got here, i'm not. i have that empty feeling again. artic monkies ( Read more... )

I loved this afternoon and evening. Lacrosse... eh. Cattie's bday surprise so wonderful. Walking around downtown and campus with two of my favorite people for like 3 hours was really great. But you know what the best part was? When one of those people left. Then it was just you and me. No one else but it totally didn't change a thing. We went up to ( Read more... )

SO, monday (which I guess is now today as it just turned 12 by my computer clock) is my last day in Corvallis for 5 months. Anyone and everyone should come over, I really don't care who's there at all. My house (you know where that is) @ 6:30 till whenever just dropby and say "bye" or something. There'll be some Dream pizza and possibly a fire. ( Read more... )

10:30 @ Walnut Park, Cops and Fugitives. Bring everyone you know, it'll rock!

I want to feel okay... I want to be able to breath and laugh again. Dazed, lost, hurt... lonley. What's wrong with me?

The paint’s peeling off the streets again ( Read more... )