So, today I'm feeling a bit better. The pain has kind of turned more into a headache sensation, I'm pretty tired today but I think that's from lack of sleep last night. I woke up today at 8:00, and called I Dig My Dog, and got an interview for 11:30. We ran late because my mom got a little turned around on the directions, but I think otherwise it ( Read more... )

So, I'm sitting here at 11:38 at night and I want to fucking crawl out of my skin. I haven't posted in like forever, but nothing has really happened. The usual, got screwed over by a few people. Then I screwed over some others (the previous statement I am sorry for, I'm sorry, you know who you are). I was really hoping that this year was going to ( Read more... )

Come home, please come back to me. I have lost it. I don't know what, I don't know when, I don't know where. I wish kc would come home. I miss hanging out with him, I wish I could just go way back when, when things were so much easier. It used to be so different. I miss it. I don't miss the miserableness, but hey, I'm pretty fucking misserable now ( Read more... )

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so, my dear readers, the thing i think you sometimes don't realize is that i dont like being in my skin. i want to rip it off, i can see the image of doing it as a painting in my head, i can't paint it though. why is that? because im a fucking talentless freak. i dont have anything going for me, it would be better if i just died. i see the painting ( Read more... )

Okay, here goes attempt two. There was a driveby shooting right on Megan's street yesterday, and I was informed this evening that she now has two bullet holes in her back hatch of her car. She's ok, but freaky anyway. I was freaking out, told her that I didn't want her living there anymore, which I still don't, but I guess you can't put your tail ( Read more... )

IT JUST DID IT AGAIN. IM GOING TO KILL LIVE JOURNAL. THAT'S THE SECOND ENTRY I STARTED TYPING AND IT WENT BACK A PAGE AND LOST THE ENTIRE THING, FUCK YOU LIVE JOURNAL!!!!!!!!

isn't it funny how sometimes when you get upset, there is one person you find yourself looking for, and it's the most intense way you have every needed them and they are not there? It seems that everytime you need someone the most you have every needed them, they are not there that very moment. It's funny in a sad and fucked up way because I don't ( Read more... )

I'm so tired that I have a headache, you know that kind that you get just before you go under w/ anastesia and right when you wake up. The thing is, I'm fighting with everything I've got to not let my eyes shut. I'm terrified to let my eyes shut and my eyes start rolling back and forth in my head. I have been having the most fucked up dreams, so ( Read more... )

I am talking to someone on the phone from on-line, I can't believe it. I feel kind of weird about it, but kind of not. I called the fucking bitch (i.e. kat), and wow, I got a hello, it's a fucking miracle! She said her usual "hi, how are you" in her annoying "I'm just so fucking happy 24/7" voice, not that she fucking cared because my gut told me ( Read more... )