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Drink up, baby
I guess this is where I spill my guts and tell my story, where I explain what caused terrible misunderstanding that ended it all--my happiness. Or you can say I never had it all along. I seem to have an Elliott Smith song constantly playing in my head, telling me "drink up, baby and don't say a word" or "I never meant to hurt you." Either way, I'm ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: Band on the run
I discovered something today. We're never where we want to be. There is always a great goal or master plan, why can't everything be still for a while? Each day is another closer. To what? One supposes in a day and forgets it in two. People around me live in the moment of things, but why does mind wander to places other than the present. Last night ( Read more... ) -
Weird Dream.
I died again last night. Be it my subconscious yearning for closure or my active mind contemplating consequences, I keep dreaming of this one moment in the future, as if I have nothing left to dream about. A few nights ago I dreamt of breeding jellyfish. When I read into the interpretation, I was shocked to find it actually made sense. I've ( Read more... ) -
it's been a while
Nearly two years since I've updated this thing; here we go ( Read more... ) -
Hello again..
...Now that I sit and read my past entries, I can finally admit to myself, with great assurance and security, that I might be the most morbid person on the face of this planet. I mean every other entry was a lament; I'm truly sorry for that. but now that my life has apparently turned a new leaf, so to speak, I can finally write minus the whinning- ( Read more... ) -
Welcome home
It has been years since I've opened this journal. I have returned older, wiser, and, with the help of Monsieur Remis, more efficient in my language. Yes, much has happened these last few years, and since I have not a second to spare the burning passion that poses itself on to me now, I will skip the nonsense of my adolescence, and forward to the ( Read more... ) -
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What does one do when a door opens in front of them that they have the least desire of all else to enter? What does one do when the answer they so long sought has been told to someone else? I, too, as every human should, dream. I dreamt of the day where we'd stand in elegant pearls and fashionable coattails embracing one another, swinging away. ( Read more... ) -
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I must admit I've made progress on my journey to forgetting my any existance of hope between me and my "significant other", or should one say "ex." I found him to be the antithesis to what one might expect him to be. I found it futile to dedicate my efforts to something that will never coicide. Don't be mislead by my efforts to thinking that I'm ( Read more... ) -
Too tired to speak.
I believe today I have finally come to my senses--at last! I know now what an idiot I've been to ever find grace and beauty in such a self-consuming image of a being. To think I actually fell for such a pitiful mirage. I promised myself I wouldn't go head over heels as I have done before, but I managed to find a second party--or fourth for those ( Read more... ) -
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What is one to do when they are given obstacles, things put in their way to slowen their journey and purpose? I was given many, most of which I don't think I can overcome. I don't mean to come off as a pessimist, but these hardships are simply that-stubborn "annoyances" that cannot be removed. It is these annoyances that dwell with you forever. In ( Read more... )