i got a pretty amazing life right now, i dont have a job or anything but its nice to not do anything ( Read more... )

I fucked up. i said something i didnt mean to. i was having a great time, and i fucked it up for me and someone else. then i got sick, heh that was fun. i just want to not be such a fucking dumbass i hate myself sommetimes. heh go me.

last night...heh it was a night ( Read more... )

its time for me to update, so i wrote this whole entry about how much of a whiny little bitch i am, but i deleted it because its nothing anyone wants to read.

i cant help but feel like im trying for a goal ill never reach. i cant help but feel like ill never be good enough. Truth be told im scared. Scared i cant meet the goals i set for myself. i feel inadequate. im not going to do what i want.

Well i think its time for a real update. I want to convey a message that i have a really awesome life. I'm having probably the best time ive ever had in my life. I'm looking forward to school, ready to get that over with but i want to enjoy the end too. i see me having several good years in a row. I'm gonna make my life be awesome, i want to help ( Read more... )

So well past few days, absoultely amazing, i wont go into details because im lazy but heres a short summary, get back, get brittany, smoke weed, hang out, smoke more weed, try and go to the movies, smoke more weed, try and go to the movies, smoke again...have ...private time with brittany A LOT. i didnt sleep much but i was home early and that was ( Read more... )

its about that time again, well all is going well, ive been having a fantastic life, work isnt even as bad as it usually is ( Read more... )

i spose its time to update, i could go on about whats been happening since i last updated but none of thats really important. So ill just talk about last night, which pretty much sucked, but whatever. It started off with smoking and i figured id just wait until later when everyone was together, which would have been a good plan. So everyone gets to ( Read more... )

i feel like its time for a change