cross posted to my other journal.

i won;'t remember everything.
i won't remember everyone.
this is just what is in my head right now.

a year complete.
i really just cannot believe that it's may and i'm still sitting in room 509.
i held my own this semester, and i've come a far way from who i was in december.

( it seems like just yesterday )

even though i'm surrounded by amazing people
even though alot of people have my back
even though people want to spend time with me

when i'm by myself for 5 minutes, i feel overwhelmingly empty and alone.

i dont want this anymore. i want it to go away.

I'm glad she tore me apart and told me what an immature waste of money I am. I'm sorry I can't be my father. Did you ever think that maybe because we aren't even fucking related that I'm going to act nothing like him?

i'm glad that youare slowly revealing yourself to me. like you said. i don't know you. i was just a fool to believe in it. it ( Read more... )

so here i am. in maine. a good idea? uh huh, uh huh ( Read more... )

tonight was the balls.

an open highway night drive with sean, chrono cross, unearth, final fantasy, yellowcard, amazing acoustic pieces, and others, gummy worms, jolly rancher soda, heavy and light conversation, and planning out a summer which will most likely be fucking monumental.

awesome.

everything is slowly getting better.
bitterness is still there, but is slowly dwindling as i attempt to focus on other stuff.

i got my buddy back. ♥
im single and this time im actually going to learn who i am.
i have the lead in Nick's play. ACTING. YES.
I've been asked to sing for a TAKING BACK SUNDAY COVER BANDintermural soccer OWNS YOU ( Read more... )

if i could only stop the car and hold onto you, and never let go. i'll never let go.

as we round the corner to your house, you turn to me and said
"ill be going through withdrawl of you for this one night we have spentand i want to speak these words but i guess i'll just bite my tongue and accept "someday, somehow," that we'll hang from ( Read more... )

my eyes are bright red ( Read more... )

Save Buellah: i've lost you & without you i'm nothing.
Save Buellah: i've lost you & without you i'm nothing.

i wish i could just run forever.

first ( Read more... )