One day, when the pain of the world ends, I will dance with you in the fields. One day, when tears fall no more, I will dance with you in the fields. When misery fades, and sadness subsides, I will dance with you in the fields. And when the cold darkness turns to warm light, we will dance together, In the fields.

You know I dreamt of you last night. We were sitting at a table as friends, enjoying each other's company. Though I knew that we still couldn't be, I was content just to be there as your friend. To be there and hear your laugh, and see your smile. I was happy just to be with you. In reality I had let that opportunity slip. I let you go, and that ( Read more... )

She found him sulking in his recliner in the den. As she entered the room, brandy and smoke wafted into her nostrils, as she noticed the glass in his hand. " I’ve cooked some dinner for us. Why don’t you come and eat ? " she exclaimed. With this he looked up at her, and she could see that his eyes had become glossy and red. Angrily he muttered ( Read more... )

Dance with me tonight my dark bride ! Let me taste the poison in your kiss ! We will dance and sway in madness, and when we've become exhausted and can take no more, we will retire into the darkness and sleep.

In my never ending stack of sad years, this year is turning out be to just another part of the stack. It is still only half way into the year;however, the year has been chocked full of sad happenings. I have lost a lot of potential friends, and actuall friends. It appears that while only some of it is circumstance, most of the losses are directly ( Read more... )

waiting for an afterlife ( Read more... )

How I dread this life ! How assanine and pointless it all seems. I can find no hope in anyone or anything. God was suppose to be my rock, is he even there ? Or is he trying to teach me something ? Tonight I went out drinking, and i felt like i always do. I felt saddnened. I felt hopelessnes, and other sad feelings. You might ask, Cole why do you ( Read more... )

So Im pretty sure that I'm manic depressive. Or at least I have some of the symptoms. I have been diagnosed with clinical depression, and i take medicine for it. yet as shown in the previous post its not the full answere. It is not a cure all. Like i was saying, most of the time, I am depressed; however, there are times when i feel joy. It comes ( Read more... )

Hey drunk entries are always fun. Lol ! So like im writin, an i dont even no the fuk y, cuz no one cares. Not even the people i could count on. So for life, as many of us has asked, wats the point ? im lookin, an i dont c one. I look and look, but guess what ? I thot maybe luv was the answere, theres a line in the movie the moulon rouge that says ( Read more... )

Well it seems im writing to no audience, but wat ever. Yesterday was the toughest day for me ever ! I learned that the girl i truly cared for is seeing someone else. She told me that she wanted to stop dating me because she needed time away from boys, however i come to find that ( Read more... )