It's been another while since i last wrote in here... both a good and bad thing i guess. I don't really have a lot to say, but somehow i manage to while i get rolling with the ideas / ranting.

I can't wait for this semester to be over... honestly it can't come soon enough. It's almost unbearable right now it's ridiculous. I can't concentrate, my ( Read more... )

I'm trying really hard, that's all i can say. It's just something that's always been hard due to events in my life across the years that have left significant marks. Significant marks... ha... more like scars that refuse to fade away, not like those scars from a cut or scrape but those from an accident. The ones that you can't see but know are ( Read more... )

I'm determined to do many things in the next year or so, surprisingly enough there is some thought process. I never really thought i did have a plan , i've never been the planning type . I always kinda just let things happen. But no more, there needs to be some sort of direction otherwise i'll just float around all the time with no real reason for ( Read more... )

I'm up super early considering it's saturday. I got up around 7, i guess that's a good thing my internal clock is working pretty well but i just want to sleep. Maybe i'll take a nap later on. *sigh*

Things are actually going pretty well for the most part. I was feeling pretty good the last couple of days. I'm not sure how i feel right now though, i ( Read more... )

It's been a long couple of weeks in the sense that it's been very busy and very tiring. School's been long but alright for the most part but some days i just want to scream. I guess that's with anything though even the things you love. I used to love doing alot of things but i've put most of them in the past it seems. Work makes for long days after ( Read more... )

Well i certainly hope that this is the beginning of something better and not the start of something worse. It's been a pretty good couple of days considering how bad the others have been. I'm still really tired but can't seem to sleep anymore, just toss and turn. It's hard to wait for something to happen... to wait for that one thing that will make ( Read more... )

The longer this lasts the more i think that i could seriously write a book about my life and the lives of others who would allow it. Then make a mini-series of sorts. But then again i'm no director, i may have an eye for food artistically but nothing else. The last 3 years have been very note-worthy i must say, and clearly i have taken notes, ( Read more... )

It's like i'm being bombarded day after day with terrible news, family dealings, random bad luck, thoughts that wont seem to leave, and having to pretend that everything is all right. It's been a very long three weeks, almost unbearably long. It seems that nothing will ever start to go right. I suppose yesterday was a good day, but it still has ( Read more... )

i was just reading my last post, and yeah it's angry, very very angry. But i dont regret anything i say, because it's true and you all know it. If i'm wrong somewhere then say something and we can have a little debate.

Right now things are falling apart around me, and i'm just so tired... i find it funny that my rocks right now either aren't in ( Read more... )

If your a girl, you may not want to read this. But if you do dont be mad because i warned you. Because it will offend you i almost guarantee it.

Like the Title Says I'm so fucking pissed off right now. For about every reason possible. But mostly I'm
 fucking tired of it all. Of you FAKE friends, of the people who pretend they care and actually ( Read more... )