I actually felt a little bit good today for a while!

We paid the rent, which is one major reason.  Also, I went to Dr. Kwon. Upon hearing of my experiences of the past two weeks and having a good idea of my history now, he wants me to try Lithium...er...lithium, do you capitalize that?  I'm just worried about its impact on the baby.  I know I can ( Read more... )

right now, but I'm having trouble sleeping.  I guess I have a lot on my mind.  I took Benadryl so I might poop out before this entry reaches its full potential.

One of the thoughts bugging me:

I have been sleeping in Violet's bed and she has been sleeping in mine.  She sleeps well in there and I have no bad feelings about sending her to sleep ( Read more... )

I've had this same headache since last night; I hoped it'd go away with some sleep, but no ( Read more... )

I said earlier that Maclean wasn't being supportive but he really came through today.  He reinforced some of the good feelings I've had and sort of "beat away" the bad ones.  He said some things that helped a lot and followed it up with hugs and some sympathy, and also some dinner.  He stayed home from band practice to be with me.

I thought he ( Read more... )

but the second half of this day is really kicking my ass.  I'm feeling really hopeless and down about the fact that I need a job and can't get one.  Tomorrow is the last day of summer playground, so that's the end of my summer childcare.  I really want to contribute, but the idea of job searching literally terrifies me.  I was gonna call the ( Read more... )

I've been playing Final Fantasy X, reading Outlander by Diana Gabaldon and playing Legos and cards with Violet to pass the time.

I only have a semi-working car which I'm a little afraid to use (I don't need two broken down cars at my mom's!).

The book I'm reading seems to hold my attention for about a chapter at a time, which I guess is better ( Read more... )

TodayI:
*played with Violet and bathed her
*cooked dinner

Most of the rest of the day I was playing FInal Fantasy X again.  It makes time pass and I don't notice it.  I feel shitty about not being able to work and I'm pregnant anyway.  Pregnancy is not a good job qualification.

I'm upstairs at Len's computer typing this.  He thinks his router is ( Read more... )

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