I really don't like waking up in a bad mood, it's nearly impossible to salvage the day when that happens. I'd like to understand why my subconscious insists on torturing me on a nightly basis with dreams about someone I don't need to be dreaming about. guess I need to stop thinking about it during the waking hours ( Read more... )

it sucks when you feel like you're losing someone you really care about.

the fact that I'm single yet completely unavailable hit me in the face really hard today.

I have too much shit going on in my head to even have a little fun.

I really wish we could talk...

one more step to take, one more discussion to have, and finally I can allow old wounds to fully heal, and allow myself to seek new blood to inject into my life.

this weekend is going to rock.

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life is so strange right now...and I don't know what to do about it.

I hate that you know you drive me insane.

and so, the beautiful people get what they want, again ( Read more... )

one is obviously not right for me.

one is obviously out of my league.

one, I don't even want anymore.

one, I'll always love, but we'll never be more than friends.

sometimes, I wonder if being a lesbian is really that much more dramatic and complicated than being straight, or if it just seems that way.

she is so amazing.

sometimes I wish that I would be enough for her.

but, invariably, I never am.

so why even bother.

had the most amazing dream last night...why can't real life ever go that well.

I hate being interrupted just when shit is getting good.

my mind has been racing all day.
I need to talk...but it's so hard sometimes.

I need to sleep.