this has been the longest week. I start working overnight shifts next week, I'll be working that shift off and on for the next two months. it's going to suck a lot and my social life is probably going to go down hill quite a bit. the things we have to do for money ( Read more... )

it's been weirdly busy around here lately. lots of random stuff going on ( Read more... )

it's been entirely too long since I've felt real....affection.

I feel starved.

what an interesting night that was.

life continues to be strange and frustrating....but I see a possibility for improvement on the horizon.

we shall see.

I hate knowing it was just a phase.

I feel cheap.

I have this stupid little crush on someone that really needs to go away because it's driving me insane ( Read more... )

once upon a time people were happy around here.

remember?

I miss those days.

ps - I understand, even agree with, your reasons, but that doesn't make it hurt any less. and no matter how much, for your sake, I want to, I'll never be comfortable with this.

secrets secrets everywhere.

I refuse to let this consume me again. enough is enough. and if there is no one around for me to lean on, I guess I'll have to learn to rely on myself. they say you are the only person you can really count on, and I'm beginning to believe it.

grrrrrrrrr.