I feel bad today. I miss Josh a lot. We sent each other text messages today. I still feel empty. I have no idea why. We went out to eat the other night and he didn't pay for me. I asked him why he was hanging out with me if he wasn't supposed to. He said oh well. He said I have to wait 3 years or for him to quit working at blockbuster before I date ( Read more... )

I think I'll accept the fact that Josh won't date me, but then I'll somehow get around to asking him again. Tonight I asked him if I didn't work at blockbuster if he'd date me. His first response was yes. Then, he changed it to if I tell you, you'll either get me fired or quit. I asked him again and he said no because he wouldn't be able to date ( Read more... )

So, I hung out with Samantha today because she is leaving soon. She told me that she cheated on her husband. I know he's cheated on her and broken her heart, but deal with it or divorce him. Don't cheat on him too. It's so ridiculous how inconsiderate people are. She has a husband working hard and supporting her and 3 children. She was bored, so ( Read more... )

Today, Josh bought me the sex and the city movie. I was soooo excited. I can't believe he did that for me. I was ringing him up for lego batman and he was like "now, go get sex and the city and I'll buy it for you." I was like seriously?!? He was like "yes!" I ran and got it. He was like I bought Jay movies. Jay's movies were cheaper. They were ( Read more... )

A lot of people say that Josh and I are already dating because we hang out and talk all the time. I haven't kissed him or anything and I miss him a lot of the time. I hate not talking to him. I know I'm obsessing. A lot of people also say that he seems to like me and that we would make a good couple. HE keeps telling me that if I leave, he'll be ( Read more... )

Amanda finally got fired. She didn't make us feel any better though. She called corporate and told them that me and Josh were dating. She also tried to say we were discriminating against her because she had kids. Josh is going to end up cutting my hours because we now have 2 shift leads. I'm looking for another job. I think I'm just going to work ( Read more... )

Will I ever be able to break a guy's heart? Will a guy have a conversation with someone one day and reminisce about me? I don't think it will. I asked a question on girls ask guys. It was about Josh, of course. I asked if friends could ever be anything more. The person that replied said that if Shavon were to walk back into his life and work at ( Read more... )

So, I really need to get over Josh now. I think he did something with Amanda. He hasn't been talking to me lately and I think it's because he's mad at her. Amanda and Josh haven't been talking a lot lately either. He even called her stupid today. That sounds like something a guy would say if a relationship had gone sour. I should have known ( Read more... )

So, today Mr. Reimers informed me that if I didn't work at blockbuster he still wouldn't date me. He said it would be awkward. I think he was just saying no so I wouldn't quit or want to get fired. I got him to text a girl today. i actually did it for him. I'm not being selfish. He doesn't want me, so I have to find a way to get over him. Just ( Read more... )

I guess I thought that Jeremiah would have been a cool boyfriend too. Now that I think of it, he'd probably be a boring boyfriend. It would be fun to go to concerts every other weekend. I dunno. Someone once told me that you never really get over your crushes, that you just learn how to deal with the fact that you'll never be with them. It's ( Read more... )