Soo ( Read more... )

 This blows.
I do not belong.
I have to get away.
I will surely die.

..no joke.
I am so fucking unhappy here.
It's my birthday.
And I don't care.

19 days and a wake up.
Then i'm home bound.

And we pray all damn day, every day
That this shit our president has got us in will go away...

And then we'll say fuck bush and fuck this war!

 Am I doing this ( Read more... )

 I like Sean so much.
He's the only guy i'd ever think about dating.
October's coming so fucking fast.
It is not going to be a good month for me.
Not at all.
But what better to do on October 16th than fucking leave for the army.
You know?
How fucking happy am I?

.. but gosh, does that boy sure have my heart racing.
Oh I really adore him.

It's  5 in the morning.
I haven't been able to sleep.
It's a mix between being and feeling sick, 
and thinking about too many things.

I really don't want to fuck this one up.
But it's the only way I seem to know how to handle things.

Jovi's....
His..
The 16th of October is so soon.
I remember thinking last year after he died..
he died..

I still can't fucking ( Read more... )

I'm leaving the 7th.
To go into the army.
To be psychological operations.
I think I might enter active duty.
Why not, I haven't really got anything big to come home to.
I'm not going to be anybody if I stay here,
but I don't want to go out there and fail like so many people in my family.
I don't want to leave my brother and sister.
Or any of my friends.
How ( Read more... )

I don't like this.
I quit.

I really hope that this weekend is perfect. Wonderful. And the most amazing weekend anyone's had for a while. Which also means that I gotta try to hang out with a lot of people. Chelsea & Ali, Monique, Jarryd, Hillary, Grace, Alicia. Mostly. I'm hanging out with Moe on Friday for a while so that's good. Then Saturday is Hillary's party so that's ( Read more... )

If every thought were the size of a penny, i'd have enough to fill disney world ( Read more... )