its funny how you make me so happy & so angry at the same time.

maybe i have been annoying you latley. & im sorry for asking so many questions, but i cant get over the fact that you lied to me. i know you lied to me because you were still upset with me & i probably shouldnt be worrying about it, but i really dont know if i can believe anything that ( Read more... )

im trying reallly hard not to care. & i know this probably sounds bad, but i really dont want to care. i hate how im always the only one who cares. people change. there was a time when i considered you to be one of my best friends & i can honestly say that right now, id be fine erasing all of that. so dont come crying to me when you're depressed ( Read more... )

i guess things are okay ( Read more... )

why did i have to listen to people?
why did i open my big mouth ..AGAIN?
didnt i learn the first time?
i hate myself .. i really hate myself.

im crying.
i cant stop crying.
ill probably cry myself to sleep tonight.
i hate crying.

i was afraid that this would happen.

if its over, im never going to forgive myself.

did you ever have one of those days where you hate the world?
ive been having those days non-stop allll week.

people make me sick.
i shouldnt listen to the opinion's of other people, but i cant help it.
& to be honest .. it really gets to me, sometimes.

people need to stop being so judgemental.
i shouldnt be talking, since im just as bad as everyone else ( Read more... )

sometimes .. i feel like im not good enough for you. i put these thoughts into my head. theyre probably not even true, but i havent been able to stop thinking about it latley. sometimes i think you have these standards & i can barley fulfil them. i know you'd never intentionally hurt me .. but in the back of my mind, i keep thinking about how you ( Read more... )

i wish tonight didnt have to end. 
for once, everything felt so .. so perfect.
you're amazing <3

not having school for the past three days was wonderful.
yes, i was bored out of my mind, but i survived. theres so much snow outside, i dont think ive ever seen this much snow before. its nice not having any schoolwork to worry about .. especiallly ( Read more... )

so i guess i really had nothing to worry about.
you never said what i thought you said, which was a HUGE relief :)

i dont know what id do without sarah<3
i reallly hope everything works out tonight.

the chem lab on tuesday was surprisingly easy.
new lab partners / groups are def a plus.

i have work until 10 tonight :(

yeah .. neverminddddd<333333333

i got absolutley no sleep last night. my stomache is in knots and i have the worst headache ever. 
i cant even think straight .. i just keep thinking about things over and over again.
& i want to cry soooo bad, and im usually really good at crying .. but the tears wont even come out.

the SATs were such a joke yesterday.
i probably did awful .. again.

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