well i noticed alot of ppl have started to join this thing. i kinda abandoned it after i wasnt really getting any comments and no one belonged to livejournal. oh well, here it is again! dude, my grandmas house sucks my balls. sure i have more freedom, but uhh....i dont know anyone in pasadena! fuck! im fiending not to mention, if i dont get some ( Read more... )

hmm. havent updated in a long time. well, im PMSing, and you know what THAT means...! being extremely emotional! well Nigel made me cry 3 times yesterday (NOT the sad kinda, the happy 'i love you' kind) and he was like omg, stop bleeding already! ugh, sorry, ill spare you the bloody vagina talk ( Read more... )

Must be your skin that I'm sinking in ( Read more... )

after reading some ppl journals and talking to others, it seems like everyone is going through this sorta numb, comatose, not-all-there sorta feeling. i have been since jan. 6th, its been clearing up just a tad though i will admit. the way Ryan described it as "standing on a highway with the cars just passing through you while your so still" is the ( Read more... )

heh...i love Chris's comment on my last entry. Ryans too! you guys are awesome and you make me crack the fuck up...i love you all! today was pretty cool. i took a nap!! a 2 1/2 hour one! can you believe it? Gina, sleeping when she doesnt have to? thats unheard of! but i like it...sleep is good, so is sitting around doing nothing and having alone ( Read more... )

well its been a long time since i got to write in here...eh. thanks to john barone, make a long story short, he abandonded me at my social workers office, DCFS (department of children and family services) had to put me in a shelter for about a month, a really shitty shithole in a crappy part of LA. im now im a group home in santa ana, but its not ( Read more... )

soooooo...its tuesday, so far quite uneventful. i wanna get out =-( my dads in somewhat of a better mood thank god. and my brother is back home =-( hate the little bastard, hes still annoying the hell outta me but now he knows not to lay a single finger on me =-D ( Read more... )

im frustrated...more than usual lately..maybe its b/c im hemmoraging from the vagina more than i have ever been, my hormones are bouncing off the walls, i have a pounding headache, and my ovaries feel like they are on raging fire. nice eh? sorry if that disgusts any of you, but if it does, fuck off ( Read more... )

today felt like a complete waste of a day..as is every other fucking day of my life that i live. today i realized that every single thing i do every single day has no meaning or point. if i sound emo, depressing, or just plain annoying i dont mean to, just expressing how i really feel about all this. life ( Read more... )

times are getting rough, and im going to either the hospital b/c of the pains shooting down my left arm and in my chest. my social worker and psychiatrist found out so they told my dad to take me to the emergency room b/c "its really serious" and something about my health insurance wont go through till 5 weeks from now...blah, i told em ill be fine ( Read more... )