God i just dont understand!! i feel so used! I feel that i was just a puppet for Alysha to get over kelly or something! i just feel if i wasnt being used then why would it be so easy for her to just let me go! omg why didnt i see it! why am i so stupid! omg i just hate her right now and now she got what she wanted! i dont want to talk to her! i
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well tm is our anniversary! it would have been our 5th!<3 Today i looked up all the florest shops in Houston and i had some flowers delivered to alysha's house today. i know that our anniversay is tm but i cant do anything tm because i have to go to the doc tm! i know that she probably thinks that i forgot our anniversary but i just did it in
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i am in love with a beautiful beautiful woman!! I am in love with her cute smile her healing laugh and her gorgious eyes!! she is just so beautiful in everyway...she is a great great person! she is caring for everyone she loves, she makes me laugh harder than i have ever laughed in my life! Alysha my queen i love you!! <3<3<3
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you know what i havent been getting into fun lately and it makes me sad because no one wants to hang out with me and party...i guess its because i dont have any party friends. i need some party friends so i can go have fun, because it seems like im the only one that is not having fun and it makes me sad because i feel unwanted
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Well im offically lost right now. i dont know where im going, what im doing, and i dont know what the fuck is going on!! i mean the only thing that was keeping me together was Alysha and now i dont have that and i am so gone!! i dont know what happened...its like i wasnt good enough or if i just was so overpowering...or i was just unworthly. i
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i think that it would be easier if i died...i think that everyone would just feel better if i did...i know kelly would. i really do think that the only person that would really care and not spit on my grave would be...my queen alysha!! i just dont feel like living because i am so FUCKING stupid...all the FUCKING time!!!!! i just really hate me all
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Omg i miss her sooo much!!! its like whenever she left a piece off me left with her! i cant stop thinking about her...every second of my life i think of my queen!! she is just so perfect i love her with all of my being!!! ...we both got each other matching watches for christmas..so now we get to be twinkes together!!! YAY!!!God i am such a loser
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