Today was so much fun ( Read more... )

So I am pretty obsessed with the song "Silhouettes" by Swimming with Dolphins. You should definitely check it out.

Uh. I've decided that I reeeeeally want to go to Cornell or Columbia after TAMS. I've thought about it and honestly, I don't give a frack if I have to repeat classes. I just want to go because the schools are in New York and that place ( Read more... )

I just saw The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, and to be completely honest, I have no idea how I'm supposed to feel. I'm so absolutely confused right now, I don't know what I'm supposed to say about that movie. A movie is good, bad, or okay. It's supposed to make me feel, and those feelings that are strongest are what stick to me. Those feelings ( Read more... )

Last night, I had the strangest assortment of dreams/thoughts.

I dreamt that my mom died. I don't know how or why she died, but she did. I remember saying "It hurts so much" to someone because never before have I felt so much pain in my life. I walked around McConnell and everyone would ask what's wrong and I never gave an answer. I just remember ( Read more... )

Part I: The Struggle

Anupriya told me this little phrase that I really liked, and it was: little kids, little problems; big kids, big problems. In Anna Karenina, I can only remember one line distinctly from that massive novel: all happy families are alike; however, all unhappy families are unhappy in their own ways.

To me, these two little phrases ( Read more... )

I want to go home so badly this weekend. I want to be in the car with my brother, whose amazingly retarded humor surpasses any comedy I've ever seen. I want to talk with my sister, who makes me laugh at the dumbest things in the world and connects with me on so many levels. I want to see my mother, whose weathered spirit makes my heart ache and ( Read more... )

I've been depressed and I don't know why. Well, I actually do know why, it just doesn't make sense why I'd be depressed over it.

Oh crap. Scratch that. I don't know why I'm depressed. I just know that my life is a bunch of busy work that has to be done or everything falls apart. I guess that's a reason to be down and out. Maybe that's why.

I just ( Read more... )

I'm too tired to meditate on my feelings, so you guys get a summary of my life:

Saturday - SATs with Michael, Minda, and Kelsey. Sleep for 231903 hours.

Sunday - Slumdog Millionaire and Pineapple Express at Thu's house.

Monday - Musical marathon at Mai's house (Asian Mai, not Egyptian Mai)...only that turned into a 4 hour long conversation involving ( Read more... )

I realize the title of this post is far from happy and sunshine and rainbows, but that doesn't mean I'm not all happy and sunshine and rainbows. Promise! In case you guys haven't figured out, I just use random lyrics to title my blogs 'cause I'm too lazy to be creative and cool. I like to mooch off other people's creativity and coolness instead. :D ( Read more... )

I am so stressed right now. My mind is exhausted and my heart feels really heavy (which is weird) and what is the worst thing about everything right now is the complete and utter lack of control I have. I like to know where I stand, and I'm so lost right now. I have no sense of security in anything I'm doing. The next two weeks of my life are going ( Read more... )