I pride myself on speaking my mind and I do...except when I get exceptionally shy, don't want to hurt feelings, or have really intense feelings I don't want the other person to know about ( Read more... )

2009, that is ( Read more... )

I’ve come to a realization that I hate myself.

This is shocking because I love ME the most (until I break down and let someone plant a seed up in this womb).  I am also honest with ME the most, so this realization may be hard to swallow, but it just might be the TRUTH.

You see, a few months ago when I started this ‘assignment’.  This contracted job ( Read more... )

Damn you Beyonce` for making your pop-filth so dang catchy!  That ‘Single Ladies’ song is one of my ringtones!!!

She also has this other song out about being a boy n’ shit.  Its really trite and I turn from it every chance I get…unless a T.I. or Lil Wayne song is on another station, then its iPod listening for me.  The song is like a ‘do unto ( Read more... )

I’ve decided to stop my weekly blogs about work because there isn’t much to say about it.  Sure the people keep me entertained-somewhat- but mostly I am working or thinking about things I shouldn’t be buying.

I don’t know what it is about the holiday season that makes me SO DAMN selfish.  I should be buying gift or at least thinking of others and ( Read more... )

Once you’ve been down there’s nowhere to go but UP.  Have heard that a million times before, but it never ceases to NOT be true.

I’ve been content with a lot of things.  Learning patience and that as long as I plod/plot, shit will eventually come to be.  I’ve also learned to be at ease with the true natures of people- this doesn’t mean that I don’t ( Read more... )

Week 5 : The Week of THIS CLOSE

One can never be too comfortable-okay comfort is good, but complacent is bad.

With the job extension I feel a sense of relief and a refining of the focus.  Must always remember why I am doing this- this doesn’t mean I can’t have a lil fun.

The hate sex I see happening with American History X may be happening sooner ( Read more... )

Week 4: The Week the World Changed…just a lil

I started this week excited to have met my friends baby for the first time and anticipating election day.

Still had the usual hate for the MTA….okay a lil less hate because some dudes in suits just make my morning! Morning and evening travel make me tired though.  Like by Friday I am just DONE!  Am sure ( Read more... )

Um, Barack Obama is NOT the first black (biracial really, but is perceived as BLACK) president.  There were about 4-5 others before him.

I am not only happy that Obama is black (or any other color than crinkly peach with blue under tones)...I am just happy a GOOD GUY won.  How often do good guys win?  Plus...FINALLY some intelligence.  Also, the ( Read more... )

Overwhelmed.  Wow.  Proud.  Head swimming with thoughts.  Face hurting from smiling.  Eyes heavy from crying.  Walk is unsteady from drinking Bailey’s for about 3 days straight.

Almost a week later and I am dizzy with how light I feel.

I know this is just a small step in the right direction…and DAMN what a step it is!

I knew that I didn’t want the ( Read more... )