So Chris was supposed to help me pick out paint for the baby's room today. Guess who hasn't called me because he probably forgot? Guess who probably won't remember at all? I can just see it now, our son gets on some sports team or other school activity and has something important going on that his father should be at and look at who forgot to show ( Read more... )

How do you know when someone is worth fighting for? How do you know when that person isn't? If someone gives up on you, should you in turn give up on them? Does true love always conquer all in the end? Does it matter if you give up or keep fighting for it? No two loves are quite the same. You can never feel for someone what you felt before with a ( Read more... )

So I've decided not to try to be friends with Chris anymore. I'm really pissed off at him right now and I wish I never had to talk to him again at all. We're having a child together so I do, but this whole trying to be friends shit just is not going to happen. As I wrote before, yesterday would have been our one year anniversary. Turns out while I ( Read more... )

I've decided that today is going to be a good day. Do you know why today is going to be such a good day? Because even if I get shot in the foot, my computer blows up, and my house gets set on fire with me still in it, today will still be better than yesterday. No, I'm not kidding, yesterday was really that bad. Which is why I say that nothing ( Read more... )

I'm starting to not care what happens with me and Chris. I don't know if I'm just finally sick of all this crap or I honestly don't care. Either way, the last 2 days have been a lot easier. I don't know if I'm finally getting over him, if I'm falling out of love with him, or if I've simply been so hurt that I've become numb. The thing is, right now ( Read more... )

Never in my life have I ever heard a song that more completely describes how I feel like this one does ( Read more... )

For once this isn't directed at any one person in particular. I understand that every guy needs guy time. Us girls need our girl time too, maybe not nearly as much as you guys do, but we do now and then. The thing is, you guys tend to choose your friends over us. It's understandable to make plans with a girl you're seeing/in a relationship with/etc ( Read more... )

I'm not going to say who, but someone came by last night and made me feel a whole lot better. If you want to know who, just ask me, but I don't want to put up his name in here. So he came over last night, just as a friend, but we ended up sleeping together. It was the most amazing night of my life. After being with Chris so long I forgot what it ( Read more... )

I'm sorry. I'm sorry to my son. My little boy, the one man that will always love me no matter what. I'm sorry that he has a mother that's so mentally unstable. I'm sorry that he has a father who is so irresponsible and selfish. I'm not going to let him hurt you though. He can hurt me as much as he wants, but he's not going to hurt you. I won't let ( Read more... )

"I thought that I heard you laughing, I thought that I heard you sing. I think I thought I saw you try. That was just a dream, just a dream ( Read more... )