i have been having trouble managing two livejournals right now so i'm consolidating everything to _lalala_ . i'm going to add some people from my friends list to that journal just to make it easier for me to read my friends pages. if you don't mind me continuing to read your page, add me back. the new journal is both for personal use and for me to document ( Read more... )

How many exes do you have? oh god....not enough fingers and toes ( Read more... )

i have not been giving this journal much attention because i'm not quite sure what to write. my life is pretty boring....school, school, mike, family, school, gym.....boring! i'm inda out of it lately....i have no clue what's going on around me. i just know that i have shit to do and it never feels done. i really want to get my lazy ass to the club ( Read more... )

i am so done with this school bullshit. i am depressed, suicidal, cry every fucking day. i would rather get hit by a bus then go to class. i hate my parents for their fucking "support" that makes it impossible for me to leave this hellhole. my life has been reduced to crying, screaming and getting high. if it weren't for drugs i would not be here ( Read more... )

MINE!!!

(i am so lucky)

week 2 of class and i've cried almost every day. that would be me in the bathroom at school bawling my eyes out. i've even located a new handicap washroom that i can go into to cry so noone hears me. as for home...i have been crying for over an hour now and have cried every single night except for friday...because it was friday, and that made me ( Read more... )

i have recently discovered the joys of rich text and it makes me happy as can be. i'm feeling a pretty crazy rainbow mood. life has been generally boring and normal....school's over but my stress level never truly goes down. mike is mike, my family is good, my health is meh. not much else to complain about. my mom and i are going to rent girly ( Read more... )

my exam yesterday was brutal....i have no memory and completely blaked despite days of studying. i will have passed the course but i know i'm still looking at a sad mark. next exam is going to be even harder...just can't push myself to get started because i'm not sure where to start. i want to lie in bed and watch TLC all day but i doubt that's ( Read more... )

1. are not stupid ( Read more... )

i don't think i'm going to talk about relationship issues for a while. i don't like that i spill out emotions and make definite statements without being sure what's going.

mike and i are in a state of flux at this moment. that is a fact. i feel that's all the information required.