You know how I fall in love so easily? It's bullshit. You don't get over people you truly love. There have been 3. Maybe only 2, I dunno, the third one died. Maybe I wasn't in love, but I will never forget his face. The anniversary of his death is on the ninth. It's funny, I met him through one of my other loves. Is that weird? I didn't leave one ( Read more... )

Today I am strong. Today I am beautiful, magnificent, and maybe a little wonderful. So, I may have made bad decisions previously; maybe yesterday, maybe years have passed, but today is amazing. I won't let anyone take that away. I won't let my mistakes from the past run my life today. There's nothing you can do about it.

I think I'm depressed. Since I got back from AK, I just don't want to do anything. If life would just let me hide in my room till the end of eternity, I think I could be happy. Really, though. I don't know what's wrong. I know I don't want to see anyone.

Somewhere out there, there is a boy who's perfect. He's beautiful, he's funny, he's a little awkward. He's worth waiting for and totally worth stalking. Again. I'm super broken.

I think I may fall in love too easily. I dream about him. Some guy I met only briefly over a year ago, and I dream about him. What is that? I wonder how his mouth will taste. I wonder what he's doing right now. I'm feeling a little weird about it. It's probably because I'll be up there soonish and this is about to be a real thing. What if I only ( Read more... )

You know what sucks? Getting shit for being a hipster. I'm not like one of those "ironically-wearing vintage tees" kinda hipsters, but more like I listen to music you've never heard of. I legitimately love music. I actively look for music I haven't heard before. I don't try to keep it a secret either. If I find someone truly amazing, you can bet I' ( Read more... )

I made him a Valentine's Day card. Because I'm a girl.
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There is something ridiculously wrong with me. I flirt up a storm with the ex and then flip shit when one of Dan's chick friends says something nice to him. It's unfair of me to behave like this, I know. It hurts a little though. Maybe I should talk to him about it. So far the only person that knows I'm being crazy is the ex. I don't know why, but ( Read more... )

I have my doubts about anyone still following this blog, being as I rarely update. And then when I do it's super cryptic or just me complaining a whole bunch. I will continue to do so, but if you want you can follow me on my blogspot. There I merely take cues from my personal life, but don't go on rants. I also try to update at least once a week ( Read more... )

He loves me. At least he thinks he does. It's hard to say for certain with the distance, but he thinks he loves me! I think I love him, too. Is that ridiculous? Absolutely. And I don't care!