You know, the last thing my ego needed was a guy that thinks I'm the most amazing person he's ever met. All we do is talk. We've decided to try this long distance thing. It's cute, he asks how my day's been and pays enough attention to reference stuff later. Is this how relationships are supposed to work? It's like everything new we learn about ( Read more... )

There are days when I seriously want to stab him, throw him into a festering pit of laser piranhas, retrieve his body and stab him again just to be sure. Simultaneously, I kinda want to rip his clothes off and confess my undying love for him. I should just swear off all men.

And suddenly I have friends. I might be going outwith new people this weekend. Nothing solid, but I'm not broke right now and the girls at school were talking about maybe getting together this weekend. I know all I do is talk shit about them, but they aren't even that bad. I guess this all hangs on whether or not they get babysitters. LAME ( Read more... )

Oh man. I've got to quit talking to him. Everyday now since Saturday, we've been horribly chatty. It's dredging up all kinds of memories. And a lot of guilt. Yeah, he was a piece of shit. I wasn't much better. He's the only guy I've ever loved enough to live with. As much as I loved him, I still always loved myself more. I was a so selfish. Talking ( Read more... )

I was just thinking about him, and then he sent me a message. Funny how that works sometimes.

I got bitched at 5 times by my instructor today. I wouldn't care if I didn't end up doing what I was originally doing by the time she was finished ( Read more... )

Saint Patty's went well. I know that was like 3 days ago, but we do need to account for recovery time and my shear forgetfulness. Of course, "well" is relative. I did get blitz off my rocker and hit on this gay guy all night. Also got in a slapping fight with the roommate(apparently we were arguing politics). Let's see, Keshia's car broke, so we ( Read more... )

I was nervous for no apparent reason. I was right about the girls. Gossipy and horrible. It's not bad though. I'm far too quiet for my own good. I know, that's SO out of character for me. It's not like I can relate to anything really. Whenever I do get into a conversation they just end up asking me about Alaska a whole bunch. Whatever ( Read more... )

Oh gawd! I've got orientation tomorrow. I'm crazy nervous. I know I shouldn't be, but knowing that and feeling it are never the same thing. At least I don't have to comply with the dress code until Tuesday ( Read more... )

It snowed last night. It comes up past my ankles now and it's still going. I was gonna go shovel the walkway, but my neighbor just beat me to it. I'm making coffee now. I'm not sure what to do with my day, thinking about walking to the store to pick up some bacon so I can make breakfast. I can't think of what I normally do. I'm so broken today.