my life ruined in 1 fucking month. he will never know how much i loved him how i would never hurt him. if only he showed me it in return id give him the world. instead he fucking breaks my heart. i have never felt more pain in my life.

going to school still, doing better this semester =].

me and devon rarely talk now cuz of school/ work. he goes to pvcc too...never hurt so much in my life.
i need to fucking get over him..

nothing new..work still blows a fat one.

im very negative about life right now. bleh.
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I fucking want to leave want to move out I fucking cant stand my family they dont know mw from adam, they will never know me or accept me they are way too prissy for anything. I WILL NOT accept that my mom is sick, Ive tried to but it sure as hell fucking sucks when I cant hold a convo without her laughing randomly. U want a relationship back with ( Read more... )

I go to Pvcc for nursing
college is extremely different
I lost a bunch of friends
me and shaz are still close
still hang with devon every now and then
still like him too..
still sucks..

still not happy

like i expected, life went all downhill after graduation. got fired today, found out devon is going to go to college in NC then rents getting on my ass. i just want everything to work out, i want to be happy. i dont want to feel lonely like i do now

when the hell am i going to be fucking happy! im so sick of guys wanting sex it disgusts me all i want is for someone to fucking like me for me! i fucking miss devon sooooo bad its tearing me up inside andi fucking hate how he doesnt feel like i do, i hate outting myself out there only to get hurt. everytime. i know hes probably with another girl ( Read more... )

just when he asks me back out stupidd me has to start shit when im on aunt flow and piss him off.

now everthings werid.

doesnt seem like we are dating again

schools almost out *a week*

then im done...wow.

I feel like i lost a part of me..

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i miss him. swore i wouldnt let it get me. but he got me.

I reallly cant let a boy affect me anymore. devon is a douche. welll not really but he confuses me too much. and he didnt even text me today. that hasnt happen in 4 months...guys always ruin me. i make it over dramatic and think the world is going to end..well devon...like he is still there post break up. i still hang with him..and now i pray that ( Read more... )