New journal, new start...I hope

Men are all evil, selfish bitches.

That is all.

Now that i'm alone, and have had afew hours to think and listen to some much needed music, i'm finally starting to gain that mindset I had a few weeks ago. I've learned a lot, what to do, what never to do again, and possibly that i'm finally ready to move on. Maybe lol I say maybe because the sun never shines around me for very long ( Read more... )

Gawd. Is it too much to ask for to have a person with their own place to live, so that they don't smother the hell out of me? Someone who actually wants to be able to take care of themselves later in life? It's one thing to have motivation, but it's another to have motivation and do nothing with it. I guess he's happy having a mediocre life and ( Read more... )

I'm going home for a day or so soon, I need time to clear my head and have a little alone time, to figure out what i'm going to do with myself, i'll either come back with a decision to stay here, or get an apartment at sam until jr year or so, and get a job to help pa with the house and etc here until i'm stable enough to come back. I'm looking ( Read more... )

Yee Gads, Why oh ahy is it that I can never just have things remotely okay for more than a day? I'm so irritated right now I could just pack up and leave. I'm beginning to think it's impossible to be happy. Seriously. For me at least. Everyone else is okay, but I seem to be missing something or have left out a step, because I dont think everyone ( Read more... )

i feel so incredibly shitty and theres nothing i can do about it, and noone to talk to about it who will understand. I want to go to another school, to the city. Where I can have an apartment and work, at say, the mall, or a fun job...I want to live somewhere there are things to do. Somewhere where just living doesn't make me want to end it all now ( Read more... )

It's so much fun when life as you know it slowly comes to an end. Im stuck here, no entertainment, broke, no friends, and noone to talk to. While everyone else is happy and doing what they want to do. Nice. Thanks God. You owe me an explanation, seriously. I guess i'll have to make lemonade out of crap. When life hands you lemons....throw them at ( Read more... )

Ok, so, I think he's gone again. and rather than making a desperate fool of myself chasing after him, i'm wondering if I should just let him go or not ( Read more... )

i cannot stand boys. I really cant. I JUST got home from work, i'm tired, pmsing and i feel like crap already and here HE comes catching an attitude and being a asshole. I cant wait until he finally finds himself somewhere (else) to go.