While having a conversation with a friend I told her that getting over B was the hardest thing that I have ever had to do and I am not sure that she believed me.  I struggled to find the right words but they sounded flat even to me.  She started asking about some of the more difficult times in my life.  She mentioned growing up without my mom, the ( Read more... )

When I was growing up I use to dream about how my life would be if my mother had not left and everything would have been better.  I begged my father to help me find her sure that as soon as she saw me she would pick me up and all the bad would go away and we would live happily ever after.  When we were all over the age of 18 my father gave me the ( Read more... )

There are so many things running through my head that I can not sort them out to begin to type them out.  This could be worse than writers block...

I know there has been a time in most peoples lives that you have heard a conversation that a stranger near us was having on their cell phone.  Most of the time I just ignore it and flip through a book or a magazine and try and tune it out I have to admit that there are times when its gossip about how badly someone behaved, or what happened to cause ( Read more... )

I have never believed in love at first sight, and the idea of a single person out of more than a billion that is meant for you seems ridiculous.  The word love scares me, and until recently is not one that I used often.  I have always wanted to be a wife and a mom however I thought that when I decided to get married it would be to someone that was ( Read more... )

The first time that I threw up it was an accident.  I was upset about how I had played in a tennis match, I am not sure if it was a result of the work out, heat, and tears but I threw up in the grass just past the courts, when I was done I felt better, empty almost as though all the frustration came out with the vomit I was hooked from that moment ( Read more... )

I know what you are going to say, "everything is going to be fine" and ""they do these operations hundreds of times"  but I am scared out of my mind.  My brain was instantly went to the issues that she has had during the pregnancy.  I know that she has high blood pressure, and Baby T has been fighting coming out.  I saw the look on Chris's face he ( Read more... )

I got a text today from telling me how blessed G is to have me in her life as she welcomes her new son into the world.  I had never though of it that way. I have always thought that I was the lucky one to have her in my life, and she is kind enough to include me in this time in her life.

Its funny how time flies by, it does not seem like long ago ( Read more... )

For those of you who do not know on Thursday morning a man flew a single engine plane into the IRS building here in Austin.  When I first heard the news my mind went back to September 11 and waited to see if it was happening again, this time in our own back yard.  As I made calls around to make sure that everyone that we know and love was accounted ( Read more... )

I have been a Daddies girl since I was a little girl, I use to think that he was a super hero and he was off saving the world, when I became a teenager we had what I imagine it a typical relationship between a girl and her father, scaring off boys, grounding me if I did not get good grades, I did a lot of yelling and door slamming.  It took me many ( Read more... )