My therapist suggested that I use this journal to work out my feelings and for the most part I have tried not to put anything in here that would offend anyone or sound too much like bitching so I use the old fashioned kind of journal but thought that I would try and put it in here for once maybe I can get some advice from the people that know me ( Read more... )

I watched Secrets of the YaYa Sisterhood for the second time.  I remember seeing it in the movie theater with you all and the night that followed.  There were tears just like the first time I saw it but the tears were different this time.  The first time I saw it I cried with the sisters for mothers lost, theirs taken too soon, and ours never known ( Read more... )

I know that I have been gone for a while and I never realized how many people read this silly thing.  I was sitting at the bar one day while poker was on a break and was asked what I was going to study when I went back to school and before I could answer one of you said I should be a writer and mentioned this silly blog.  I tried to laugh you off ( Read more... )

Guys are stupid, all they do is break your heart.  I know that there are women who marry for money and not love and we as women call them all kinds of ugly names but maybe they are right.  They never get their heart broke so maybe they are on the right track, if you do not give your heart away you can never get your heart broken.  I have always ( Read more... )

I had a conversation with my A today and she ripped into me about my inability to trust anyone fully.  The way that she said it was as though it was a bad thing.  Please do not get me wrong, I love my family and my friends but I am not so disillusioned that I believe that it will be smooth sailing with no drama or disagreements I am not foolish ( Read more... )

When I first found out that my father was dating I was jealous in a way that I had never been before, I did not like the idea of having to share and I am not proud of the way that I behaved.  Then as I got to know J I realized that she was an amazing woman who made my dad happier than I had seen in a long time and the thought of sharing him no ( Read more... )

We are taught young that it is ok to blindly believe somethings, no matter how unlikely or impossible it may be.  A fat man that flies around on sled filled with toys pulled by flying reindeer coming down chimneys leaving toys for all the kids around the world in one night, yeah THAT could happen.  How about the tooth-fairy, a fairy that flies into ( Read more... )

I only have a few minuets before J and the dogs get here so I will have to elaborate more this evening.  Its so weird to not feel sick anymore.  I know that sounds weird, I am not sure that it even came out the way that I wanted it to.  Its weird how quickly my life seemed to fall apart, and I use the word seemed because I know now that while it ( Read more... )

When I was a little girl I thought that my father was the single greatest man in the world.  He was so strong that nothing could hurt him, he was so brave that nothing scared him, and he was so smart that there was no question that he did not know the answer to.  I knew that our family was different than most were, in place of a mom we had a ( Read more... )

There are times in our lives when God brings people in our lives for the soul purpose of reminding us that things are not always as bad as they could be, and shows us what strength really is,  H and I have been friends since we were in high school.  We always got along well we shared the same dry sarcastic sense of humor, and struggling with our ( Read more... )