today was so fabulous. I woke up bright and early and ran to the store and got things to make breakfast. it's strange how different it feels in the sunlight when you're with someone that you only see at night. it feels better in the sunlight, i think. i felt very sober and very exposed. sadly enough, i am rarely sober with this person. i am ( Read more... )

I had my first day of class today. I really enjoyed it, except the part where I had to get up at 6 am. Right now, I'm just sitting here at work on my ass and drinking beer....talking to Adie who tells me that he wrote her an email. I wonder what he said to her. What is there to say to her? She was my friend, my whatever. I don't know what to ( Read more... )

I've fallen off the face of the planet somewhat, but I'm back again. I feel like I've been vacant for the past two years nearly, just sitting here and feeding myself with circumstance and situations which have shaped me into whom I've become. I accept responsibility, however. Ok, so I took a slight detour, but everything and everyone I have ( Read more... )

so, to balance the feelings I've had lately, I've decided that it's probably best that I make whatever changes in my life that I can make....just to make things different from how they are right now. changing=escapism. haha. So, I know that I can't change what happened, but I'm definitely going to change how I feel about things. The first thing ( Read more... )

I haven't been writing in here lately. I'm honestly concerned about posting again....it's been months since I posted anything substantial and public. I know who reads my journal, and I don't want my entries to hurt anyone ( Read more... )

erica...you're the most interesting?? wtf?? haha ;) MUAH

eXpressive: 7/10 ( Read more... )

tangled inside the loss of you
I grasp for anything
resembling the truth
but I slip and I fall
and every hour I'm getting used to
losing it all
the day you came
the months I shattered
you were screaming my name
kicking up sand when I left you alone
and now I'm getting used to the ghostly echo
of your voice on the phone
to feel the touch of you

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