So I was listening to the radio on my way to tutor Nancy and I heard a song that totally described me. It describes how I feel and what kinda is going on with me. Here is goes ( Read more... )

And the hell begins again! It was nice having a week off from hard core studying, but now its time for me to shoove my face back in the books without hope of being seen again. Guh...school is kicking my butt!!!! I seriously need to make straight As on all my upcoming tests if I want to have an acceptable GPA. Insane ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a new day for me. I went to church with Beth. And I must say that going to church, meeting new people, having dinner with the congregation, and then spending a few hours with Beth and talking over wine was definitly something I have really needed but didnt realize. I felt so refreshed after that experiene. I have not felt so good in a ( Read more... )

I listened to an old CD today and I heard the song "Listen to you heart" and it made me think. So I decided to adapt it to how I felt ( Read more... )

Is this just another phase of my life? One of the downs that I will eventually get back up again? Is this just a transition between who I am and who I will become? who is right in my life and who is wrong? I dunno. Everything seems so foggy. I have no idea what Im doing ( Read more... )

Life is intriging to say the least. Everyday is a learning experience full of events that make me grow ( Read more... )

Tonight was one of the my worst out of bounds experiences every. I have never felt so out of place or in the wrong in my life. None of my so called friends seemed to care anything about my feelings tonight and just totally made fun of me for something I would think they would have known better about. They questioned my actions and my behaviors, ( Read more... )

I feel nothing, I have been nothing or so it seems. I cant laugh or cry without it being forced. IM not hurting or happy. i just here, living in an oblivion of what my life used to be and the desire of what my life should be. Not really sure whats happeneing or why its happeneing or what im supposed to do about anything anymore ( Read more... )

So its been a hot minute since Ive updated...and per Lauras request...I am doing just that. I dunno what to say or where to begin or what even to go into. SO much is going on with me right now...im so overwhelemed. Im so distracted by life, by people, by Jessie, by school, by my self, by my feelings, my wants, my desires, my fears, my hopes, my ( Read more... )

Tara and I made up Monday night! Very exciting. So yea...Tara and I picked up with missing a beat. Good times. We hung out on Tuesday night also, made plans for Saturday...picking up some Arbor Mist, Subway, and heading to the river! Yay for old times! Time to catch up and go back to the way we used to be ( Read more... )