i dont know what set me off on monday, but all day, before, during, and after work i felt imbalanced in between temper, and tears ( Read more... )

travis made me sick. im all stuffed up and my nose wont stop drooling. and i keep getting hot flashes ( Read more... )

march 07.2005 ( Read more... )

Soo ( Read more... )

since when i do wish i could live in my dreams. but that embrace by him was just too surreal. and that real life wink today? accompanied by a smile that froze time.

so much of a rush i feel my innerds slippings back to that comfortably numb safe place ive grown to love as much as i hate. so hes opening up and leading into conversations. and i reading into this much. on the tip of my tongue ten times tonight i had to hold back from telling him whats going through my mind. would it scare him off and id ruin ( Read more... )

do i exist in a time inparallel to this? sometimes i wonder if i live in my head and just act on the outside what i need to so i dont get locked up for insanity. or maybe there is something more to all of this that only i am seeing, but im just so goddamn outnumbered. and what are the odds that there is someone out there i would desire with so ( Read more... )

oh, aching heart of mine. i wish i never felt a thing and i dont understand where the hell this has all come from in the first place. someone who was just a fictional character to me until that random meeting when i felt a fire light inside me and with every second that passes its a growing flame and i feel as though something has changed in the ( Read more... )