I can't decide if I want to go out tonight. Not sure I have the funds to.
*pout*

while you are away
my heart comes undone
slowly unravels
in a ball of yarn
the devil collects it
with a grin
our love
in a ball of yarn

he'll never return it

so when you come back
we'll have to make new love

Unravel~Bjork

I'm Adrenechrome bound tonight. You know you missed me so you're gonna come and buy me drinks!! HEHHEHEEEEEEE *KIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISS*

So, I went out tonight and even danced. I think I lost all my dancabilityness. I'm sure I just need to dance in an environment where I'm not horrified by some of the surroundings. Twas a lot of odd folk at the Death Guild.

I am back among the living-ish. I am excited! Once I get things all nice and in order it'll be all coming up roses from here....err something. I hope for the best...it's something new I'm trying out. *wink* If anyone hears of any cheap-ish studios or 1 bedroom apartments (in or around the east bay) in the next few months let me know. I don't ( Read more... )

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Personality Disorder Test Results Paranoid |||||||||||||| 58% Schizoid |||||||||||| 46% Schizotypal |||||||||||||||||| 74% Antisocial |||||||||||| 50% Borderline |||||||||||||||||| 74% Histrionic |||||| 30% Narcissistic |||||||||||||||| 70% Avoidant |||||||||||||| 54% Dependent |||| 18% Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||| ( Read more... )

I'm not quite dead, yet most of the time I am lifeless. I am drone of the working force, thus I am a 3rd rate communicator for which I do sincerely apologize. Rest assured that I will be back in communication land soon with my stomping boots on and you will love it. In turn I will love you. I no longer care about so many taxing things that ( Read more... )

I guess he still has no idea that I know he's been lying to me. I ask him about it every now and then and he lies. Every time, looks me right in the eye and lies. Why? Like I'm fucking stupid. Why on earth do people lie about shit that is no big deal? That, to me, is when it becomes a big deal. I don't know who keeps a better straight face. ( Read more... )

I don't feel that I am getting the attention or loyalty I deserve. It breaks my heart to feel so brushed off. I don't think I have a solution to this one. I'm growing soooo tired of all of this. This winter is gonna be hell I can feel it.