Its 1:30 a.m. so I guess it is officially Christmas. What can I say? I’m just not feeling it this year. No warm gooey heart mush stuff is going on and I feel so wrong because of it. I know I’m not completely numb because I cried from the happiness of seeing my bestest return home last night. There is still all that crazy, complicated emotion inside ( Read more... )

I figured since Ive been drinking by myself I should write a journal entry. Thats always a good time, right ( Read more... )

I am sitting here in the computer room of my mom's new apartment in South Carolina. Things are strange here, besides the fact that my mother is now living in the South. The trees and the people and the "y'all"s are just completely odd. It is actually my last night here and though it has been fun I am anxious to get back to NH ( Read more... )

If I could write silence in an eloquent way, I would. Because that is what Im feeling right now. Looking around my house that is not-so-much a home to me anymore. The door shutting makes an echo. It is never a good thing to have a house echo. It only reminds me of the scary movies I watched this weekend, and the fact that I probably wont be able to ( Read more... )

How come I can never write something good damnit? I swear Im not really that depressed. Or am I ( Read more... )

Despite the fact that last week was my stressful week, it seems that it is all catching up to me now. I had so much shit to do last week, mostly all having to do with school, but somehow I made it through. It was not until this weekend that I had my first major breakdown regarding my mother moving, and it was not until today that I started getting ( Read more... )

Remind me to trust my instinct ( Read more... )

LJ Interests meme results

1. being smart:
   Oooh, does this sound kind of vain? Oh well. Youre damn right I like to feel smart. You know what the best is, though, when you go to say something so intelligent and it comes out sounding really dumb. Its okay to laugh at yourself for things like that.
2. cooking:
   Oooh! I love to cook! Its so much fun and can be ( Read more... )

My birthday is in two days! I am turning the most pointless age in the world. though. 20 - whats the fucking point? Besides not being a "teen" there is really nothing appealing about this age. I guess I am one year closer to 21, woohoo. Im not sure of what Im doing really. Every year I try to make plans for my birthday, you know, gather all my ( Read more... )

Im getting behind in school already. You would think not having a job would give me plenty of free time to do my school work. Instead I go out and drink or sleep or watch television. Anyway, I realized this quickly enough so that I am now getting back on track. This will be the first semester that I take five classes and its freaking me out just a ( Read more... )