short term goals: get my diploma.
take my CPT.
apply at MDC for classes.

long term goals: get my degree.
manage my dads shop.
open my own with partner.
live life really fat and happy.

DONT DO DRUGS!!!

well, i decided to just not go to work today. i slept in the shower for two whole hours, then i got out and impulsively deciced to quit my job at starbucks. i think the idea was to run away from the fact that i am irresponsable but just quiting and making that the reason i didnt go. it turns out that i call my manager to let her know the news and ( Read more... )

today i woke up late. i missed morning out patient and i woke up at 2:00pm. i went on ahead and met up with my sponsor. we saw V for Vendeta, probably one of the best movies ive seen. then we went over to a biker meeting up north. it was a really great meeting. my day wasnt really long and i didnt do much. but it was a good day. elise is in town ( Read more... )

well im back at the 3/4 way house. i was reading back into the first time i got arrested and went to rehab. its fucking crazy. now that ive been going through therapy and learning about this disease i can see the progression from when i was like 17. i can see the reasons why i used and read my emotions and my events and how i precieved them, and i ( Read more... )

well.... 77 days later... im out of rehab. a new man. looking forward to life. clean and sober. no drugs. no alcohol. plenty of meetings though. i learned alot about myself in this wonderful rehabilitation. ive learned how to deal with my emotions. and ive also learned that i can feel emotions and go through with them w/out drowning them down with ( Read more... )

what a perfect way to end the year ( Read more... )

life is so fucking depressing....
maybe ill get this painting job for 10 an hour....

ive waited for your call....=(

another night ends in hope... :(

Drain You ( Read more... )

well i seem to hear voices in my head at night that dont let me sleep. i havent been to school in like 2 weeks. and the one thing that i dont care about is not becoming a problem anymore...($). my life just seems to be tumbling into a big ball of bullshit that i dont want to take so i just look at it from the outside and laugh at myself. but i take ( Read more... )