Unacceptable Behavior: (My Deffinition) Behavior that is not accepted by authority or by society ( Read more... )

I hate how I feel in my body right now. My cheeks are round. I hate my hair and my fat neck. My belly feels so big and it's aching. I ate so much yesterday. I'm feeling a little disoriented at the moment because my whole body hurts. But I need to go to work and if I don't leave now I'll be late. If I don't go to work I can't eat but maybe that'll ( Read more... )

This poem doesn't make a whole lot of sense. It's full of metaphors and it shows how I have been feeling lately.

If I could cry a river
I'd want to drown myself in it,
but I'd probably just float,
because I always drift through the sea of life that way,
and I'm waiting for my rescue boat to come back
because it left me behind
in the pouring rain,
and I'm ( Read more... )

my house has no living room lights because we do not have light bulbs for them and we also have no toilet paper...It's pretty sad when I have to whipe my ass with kleenex because I can't afford toilet paper.

 So it seems I may be back after all this time. Back to cutting, even back to throwing up which I was so proud because I thought I was finally done with that. I've had quite a few slip ups in the past few days. I'm so tired right now but I can't be alone with my mind. I need to escape myself.

Yesterday I was sad and found myself not wanting to eat. Not only not wanting to eat but I was so hungry and I liked feeling this way. For some reason when I feel my stomach pain from hunger when I'm depressed, it feels good to me. I don't understand it either. I can't talk to people sometimes about what's bothering me because I feel crazy and my ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt like your life was going fast and slow at the same time ( Read more... )

 
Alone in my room
silhouettes dance on the walls.
I can feel you next to me.
I can feel your breath
on my neck,
and your kisses
on my back.
Your fingers tracing my body.
I roll over
and can remember your kisses clearly,
your lips against mine,
mouthpated,
massaging my tongue with yours.
How our tongues used to play.
I open my eyes and see that you're not there,
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 The truth is:I still miss you.When you're not around and when you are.I miss your touchand I know I may never feel it again.After all this time,I still miss you The truth is:I like it when you take care of me.Even though I'm independentand I always protest.I've never had anybody care so much about my needs and my wants and my feelings,like you ( Read more... )

Take a deep breath

and let thoughts pass by

like a cloud,

in heaven

and you

are my Angel.

Close your eyes

and whisper in my ear,

"It'll be okay,

you can finally sleep again."

and my body quivers

from your soft kisses.

These kisses will never end again,

and I know you will now be with me forever.

and you whisper,

"It'll be okay,

no more tears now."

But I do cry,

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