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and i am. it costs only 60 dollars each way. and no-one can stop me. mwha ha ha!

im sitting on my stripey covered, wrought iron bed, wearing a black denim skirt and a brown and cream singlet. i have marks from my thongs on my right foot, even though i have washed it repatedly. i am looking at the wall above my bed head, the wallpaper is cream and green and vvery old, marked here and there with blutack, because i have always ( Read more... )

Im forcing myself to write today, because i feel it may be cathartic. Now i have EL and his medial condition under control with 2GP's, 2 registered nurses and a pshychiatrist i can get on with the eternal joy of being me ( Read more... )

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Your day breaks, your mind aches ( Read more... )

Poor EL keeps having attacks. I feel so much guilt that i am feeling for me when he is feeling so bad. i just cant do anything - cant enjoy anything, its like i have his shadow over me in everything ( Read more... )

Had to take EL to hospital again tonight. IM so sick of this. At least the hospital here is quiet and good, we waited about 5 minutes rather than the 5 hous im used to ( Read more... )

Here i am again in the computer lab, called Endymion Lab 4.6 or something, because that makes it sound sooooo much more better - like the vikings calling greenland greenland to throw people off the track. i am waiting until the bar opens at 10. i am babysitting Hannah's Bf, who is a difficult baby because he doesnt seem to function without Hannah. ( Read more... )