it feels strange to be here this time... like i've let go or something. like i've finally started living my life in california and no longer long for the comfort of home. it almost seems like its not home anymore. i am a visitor. maybe it feels funny because hobbes isn't here anymore. no wiggling butt and dog slobber and happy face to see me ( Read more... )

FUCKING MERCURY RETROGRADE ( Read more... )

i was going through my photography things tonight... i've been formulating new images in my head and thought i'd get out my camera and take a few tonight. anyways, i came across my portfolio binder, and in it were a bunch of pictures i took of nell when we were in tahoe. and it just hit me.... no matter what we have been through... all the ( Read more... )

i just discovered that my best friend, the person who i have shared so much of myself with, whom i love and care for very deeply, dosn't respect me. and i knew it, and this fact kept on presenting itself to me in the way she treated me... it wasn't blatently apparent, but in the minor details of life that should evoke action on the part of a ( Read more... )

we are our pasts ( Read more... )

sometimes i find that i am not a strong person ( Read more... )

1. you start crying when you see someone wearing riding pants because you can't afford to ride right now, and remain depressed about this fact for days ( Read more... )

hee hee hee
i've decided i've got a girlfriend, even though she doesn't know it yet ;)

i miss her, i miss her, i miss her :(

and so weighs my heart ( Read more... )