i hope i actually get this song together. i think it could turn out really cool, but i never finish my projects. i have a scrap recording that's all over the place but i'm not sure, the bridge and chorus parts might turn into a seperate song, or a part 2.

tomorrow will be my last day of summer. i'm so ready for school to start. i need a lengthy distraction from life

happy what would've been our 3 months, tony ( Read more... )

sometimes i'm really hurt, and sometimes i'm okay. i wish i could just pick one.
no, i wish i could just be okay.

ithink i'm doing better, doing fine. i'm starting again tobe okay with not having someone around. if i can get back to my good old self and stop screwing up, i can be my own best friend. i don't need anyone, i just want someone. i need to learn to remove a lot of the desire from my life and be more content. if i can't do that, then i at least need ( Read more... )

man i can't even believe how i've let everything get so bad.
what am i doing wrong?
what is wrong with me? i wish someone would just tell me already so i could try to fix it.
i've got so much love to give, but i have no place to direct it. it's bottling up and going bad. i'm a lot more judgemental now, and i wish more than anything that i could go ( Read more... )

Bottle up & Explode

thinking that you were about to come over
but i'm tired now of waiting for you
you never show
bottle up and go
if you're gonna hide it's up to you

there's always someone right behind me. first i can hear them then i can feel them. sometimes i catch little glimpses of them but it's usually just a black square...i don't know what. sometimes i can hear them even when i turn around. they seem a little slow in that way. i feel them right now watching me type this. listening to elliott with me. i'm ( Read more... )

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i've inverted myself completely. i'm a wallflower punch now and i'm finding something in everyone. i can't just know people, i find something good or something bad. every Angeles turns into the opposite of what they started being. people like to lie about their faults- if they’re a complicated person they'll portray themselves as simple and easy. ( Read more... )