i'm pissed. i hate being mad. being mad gives me a headache. this isnt worth having a headache. fuck.

i want to freeze this moment. i'm happy. totally completely more than i have been in a really long time- happy. and thats hard to come by. i'm not really sure why im so happy but im not complaining. im talking a wild guess that i would always feel like this if i stopped going to school. or maybe its because im so close to being done with school. or ( Read more... )

i'm not ready for it to be over. i dont remember the last time i had this much fun. spring break '06 was amazing.

i love big & rich more than anything.

i feel like getting in my car and driving nowhere and seeing where i end up. im tired of everything. i want an adventure. i want something new. i want a change. i want a challenge. i want to be inspired. i want college.

i met a stranger with a child and a wife. it was weird; i didnt know him but i felt like i wanted to.

i'm frustrated sexually  and ( Read more... )

life is crazy. 

this is my last thanksgiving at home and i spent it in bed. damn my ammune system. =(

i'm not your type and i like it that way

i just want to be happy again. i'm starting to worry that i wont be until i leave here and have a chance to start over. i dont feel like i fit in anymore. i dont feel like anyone relates or understands. i want to go somewhere where people feel remotely the same way as i do so that im not as alienated. i dont remember the last time i went out. i ( Read more... )

today i wished more than anything ( Read more... )

our last football game of high school was last night, and it was one hell of a game to end with. it was almost bittersweet. surprisingly im actually going to miss cheering. its hard to believe that its over. i wish i could stop time so i can enjoy everything for more than its worth. everything is going by so fast i feel like im missing things and i ( Read more... )