i am so stressed. i feel stuck. i feel sick. i'm antsy. i need to get out of here. i would like to sleep... it seems like that's all i do but then i just have bad dreams that make me feel even sicker and stranger ( Read more... )

i really hate you. i hate both of you. i hate that i have to live with you in my life no matter how i attempt to avoid it... and that you will always be there and your name will come up every once in a while. fucking you're just another piece in the puzzle of our social lives in general. you make me want to puke. you're low, selfish, just stupid ( Read more... )

i really hate you. i hate both of you. i hate that i have to live with you in my life no matter how i attempt to avoid it... and that you will always be there and your name will come up every once in a while. fucking you're just another piece in the puzzle of our social lives in general. you make me want to puke. you're low, selfish, just stupid ( Read more... )

first time i was scared, this time i have hope we will be alright.

it's a real shame when an angel on earth has to go back home to the heavens.

i severely dislike my life. i don't know why.

from this moment, right here, i am peaceful. i'd rather not be alone right now, and turns out he wouldn't either, but we're too young to be together every night. besides, soon it will be for a long time. i hope his mind is where mine is. i hope its above and beyond where mine is, actually. i hope it's alot like it's the first day of my life. that ( Read more... )

i don't like the way my life is right now. i have everything i want, but i'm not happy with how the things i want are right now. it's a hypocritical mess. and ironic as well. i hope this weekend is amazing. because right now things are just mediocre. exactly what i want happened, but it's nothing like i thought it would be. mediocre is the perfect ( Read more... )

i wish your parents weren't like this. you'll deny it, but we can all see the toll it takes on you. and i can see the toll it takes on us.

i don't want to feel that ever again. i don't want to ever feel a pit fall in my stomach, and cold faintness on the back of my neck. the cold sweat and the feeling of drained blood. i never want to hear those words, or feel that way when i close my eyes again. no food. no water. no sleep ( Read more... )

so im home, and it feels good. my mommy cleaned my room to an insane degree which makes me feel better right now because i had a horrible breakdown tonight and the clean room helps unjumble my mind a bit. ugh i can feel the vodka in my tummy. i think me and anthony are good, even tho he caused me to freak the fuck out tonight. idk maybe i just had ( Read more... )