i'm not okay today.
i guess i'm just scared.
i hope it wasn't a tease.
at least i know what i want for my life now.
make it fabulous, ok sunshine?

i am.... i'm not sure. in between. not too sad. not amazingly happy.
things will turn out.
fuck me im too lazy to write something.
hahaha. babababa. harharhar. hehehe.

they ripped open his chest and he's still alive.
score.

skaaintdeadyet (6:40:11 AM): thank you love. that little picture made me smile like i used to.

that makes me so happy. i cannot explain. he's so sad. honestly, i can't really blame him with everything going on. however, he needs to take control and not let it ruin his life. time goes by too fast for that.

we bought the chicago tickets today, and we have that room in the really sweet hotel for free, so that's all set up and i should be so excited, but i've just been down lately ( Read more... )

i got accepted to be a suicidegirl.
i just need to send in the papers.
i think i want this,
but what if i just wanted to be accepted to feel accomplished?

things are good.
now i just really need money... with all my plans for chicago and the summer i need some serious funds. how am i supposed to pay for chicago, california, and the cross country road trip? ill tell you how. with money. i hope i get accepted and everything pulls thru... that will be 500 bucks i definately need.

i don't get anymore of the annonymus story emails. they barely made sense, but i sort of wanted to know how the story ended. two chapters and no ending. or was it three? i think i know where they were coming from, and i think i finally made it clear that i closed that book so it's probably for the best ( Read more... )

wow. really, he's wonderful ( Read more... )

im pretty happy with my life. i feel like i've got close to everything. it's a nice feeling. i feel like i can trust you. i've never felt like that with anyone i've had this type of relationship with. there's a few things i would like to change in my life... but those are very difficult to accomplish and will take alot of time ( Read more... )