Well the dream started off with me a brunor battlehammer(forgotten realms character) Walking through the old cannon town road(an old dirt road down by home)Then he said he had to go look at something and told me to keep going so i did. When I got farther (it was winter) I found Sam, Janine, Chib Amanda Magyar (those where all the ones from 3 oaks) ( Read more... )

Well today left my messenger on gone for a shower so yeah lol, an 8 hour shower woo go team me. Which of course this sam person found my "8" hour shower suspicious... so anyways I was exhausted at the start of my shift then at the end was very hyper and still am. So yah 1:31 here and I am wired lol. So shablam. eating cold spagethie. So yeah cool ( Read more... )

Well back home now. I... all my plans all day are none are they aren't working out. The girl i was supposed to go to coffee with that I was waiting for all week couldn't, a co worker was supposed to come over and play d&d and that never happened. In my room now the light isn't on, all who is chatting with me is barraging me with questions about her ( Read more... )

well I just spent over 2 hours in the blistering cold was going over to a girls house and when I got there she said basically sorry she was really tired and didn't feel well and was gonna go to sleep so I walked all the way for nothing and froze for nothing. I was just hopping to have someone to hang out with and now I wasted all my afternoon and ( Read more... )

So fuck life fuck everything. I mean am I not meant to be happy. Am I meant to have this depressive fucking hole in me for the rest of my fucking life. Are my friends really fucking friends. I mean he was gonna tell me a day before he left a fucking day. If that would of happened like that he doesn't know how much it would of hurt me then if I had ( Read more... )

DAMNATIONS CURSE YOU ALL.

I can't believe how powerless I feel these days. I used to be mr advice. I used to be able to solve everyones problems but now. Now I can't. Distance seperates me and my wisdom isn't what it used to be. I wish I could solve all my friends problems I really do.

New years eve party was awsome I guess I got a little over exited and did this long rap thing, I'm pretty sure I embaressed myself but a well. Where is the fun when you are not embarrasing yourself ( Read more... )

so i don't know what to think anymore,
what to do,
what I should do,
what I should think,
who to turn to,
what is expected,
what to expect, what its all for.

So I guess my best friend who I was knowing for 4 years has decided her b/f has a right to say all the shit he wants about me and I can't say jack shit to defend myself. So that's great to know, considering I have been there for her through everyone of her problems, did my best to help her, gave me the best possible advise and wisdom I had to offer ( Read more... )