looking in the mirror today, I just feel so ugly, I mean the pimples just stuck out, my hair looks ridiculous, and I just felt like no one could love me because of the way I look. I just don't know why I though that... it's just kinda sticking with me. I have always wondered what it is that other guys had an advantage over me with, looks comes to ( Read more... )

I dropped my cell phone somewheres in between summerside and past kensington when I was biking back today, damn it I am such a stupid idiot!

I have lost touch with so many people and it sucks. I hate it but can't do much about it. I mean there is even 1 person who said to make sure we don't lose touch. But i think we are, she barely responds when i say hi and the convo is one sided.with me asking everthing and with her with small responces. Sometimes i just hate life, but I can see why ( Read more... )

so here I am, full of pressure to succeed but doomed to fail. I feel so alone, and i hate that i can't have things like they used to when life was fun for those brief moments. But I lost so much and now it seems like I have nothing. I hope some people I consider important to me ar happy, though I know I certainly am not important to them. I'm sure ( Read more... )

I've had a lot of time on my hands lately. Which is usualy bad lol. I've been analizing and thinking and going through everything in my life, and been wondering, if there really is no one out there for me? I can see why there would be no one for me though I wish i didn't, anyone ever feel like this?

I am alone,
It is quite a horrible feeling,
dreadfull and painfull,
fearfull and full of sorrow,
I am alone more than ever,
and none shall shed a tear for me,
nor will they think of me,
as I fade away to nothingness.

well, whole bunch of stress, no one to talk to to get my mind of the stress ( Read more... )

So I am exausted lol. Didn't sleep well last night I guess even with the sleeping pill. Still working furiously to get transfered from work to charlottetown so that I can ease some of the overwhelming stress on me. Once I move to Charlottetown I should be less down. A new place to start over new. Summerside and home, not much good memories lol. So ( Read more... )

well, haven't heard from sam for a while, thats crappy. hope she is doing well. breaks done in 2 minutes and a half, also crappy lol. so yeah life, is annoying still a lot of stuff that has to get done, still a whole bunch of stress on me and I rarely have people to talk to yay... so shazam

well, I don't know what to think, what to do, who to turn to. I'm all alone to survive this burden.