I licked and gropped my first place trophy
and they took pictures of it like mad men.
Victory is a nice feeling,
but when you're sick as I
it doesn't feel as rewarding.
Roar.

Ben came over, we hang out for a bit, then went to eat. That's when I started feeling sick again... blah.
and and, I feel fat to the extreme.

speedyswimmer05: you were a good kisser though...

( I've changed far too much... )

I miss the feeling of grass caressing my feet while the sun was beaming down on me. I also miss the evening strolls. Where all hell would break lose from a mere action we'd take. I felt so alive and yet captivated by my own emotions.

( I love these pictures I had taken )

I'm soooo excited for High School districts now. I not only get to see my friends from the other teams, I also get to see my Jimmy, and the love of my life, Miss Morgan Farley. (Don't worry, I love Ben X's infinity). She's going to bring her camera and we're going to be camera whores. Just like always ( Read more... )

Today was a good day.
The end.

I really wish I wouldn't have remembered those things today.
They just made my sense of feeling worse.

Morgan is coming to my High School Districts and I get to meet her new boy while I'm at it. That made my day entirely. The fact that I get to see my best friend finally.

♥♥♥

I give up trying to find a dress that will please me. Its useless.

The only thing that made me somewhat happy today, was getting 2 Cd's: Refused and Mewithout YOU. And also recieving a phone call by my lovely. I know I didn't sound too happy on the phone, I felt better afterwards.


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Everything that happened today, I won't forget. And it all started with this morning, until now and believe it or not. I'm still crying about it all.

Today after practice, coach gave me a note. And it read,

"Elyse,
Remember no matter how bad it seems sometimes, there are people who care about you. I am one of them. Read this when you need it ( Read more... )

my summer went by too fast
as I recall.I feel like
I totally blocked this past year,
and I did.
I feel nothing for those people
and yet I still remember my actions.
also, my consequences.
I had felt so much pain, that my mind
erased it all.
The scars are finally fading away

What scares me even more, is if
someday, those scars will come alive.