I went with Jackie and Dani's family to Cici's and the sk8 shop near by on 6-10. Then we all went to see a movie. Again Matt said he would go but never showed up. We were on our way home when he said he was on his way over with a friend to make it up to me. I didn't want them at my house so, I said I was at a friend's house. Then he wanted to show ( Read more... )

The fourth of July. He called me up needing a ride home from work. I asked my mom in hopes she would say 'no'. She said 'yes'. She liked him more than I did, and wanted me to go out and spend more time with him. I did, but I took Kristin (the hell if I was going alone). We went and got him mom dropped us all off on 6-10 for fireworks at the church ( Read more... )

Me and Sarah went to the movies. Matt said him and a friend would be there too we never got to see a movie, but we saw Jackie and Dani come out of one when I was on the phone with Matt he said he couldn't show up because his friends car broke down. "Momi Vera" kept calling him a lier personally I thought he was lying too. Later that night he called ( Read more... )

Two or three hours after our dance ended they got out of the shower. Me and Matt were laughing at them because little did they know that when David and Tara were in the shower this durex condom commercial kept coming on and the guy in the commercial was named David. It was really funny. Atleast we thought it was. About 10 minutes later Matt got off ( Read more... )

a few days later me and matt had still been having the late night talks over the phone (cus he lives in prince william county) on one of the conversations he said that it wasn't fair that david got to see tara all the time and he never got to see me he wanted me to go down to the pool he worked at and go swimming and tara and david would show up ( Read more... )

Yeah I dont really do journals, but I think I should start and to do that I have to go back to June. So yeah June. the last 2 or 3 weeks of June, I met these two guys (Matt-19 yrs old; David-18 yrs old) I didnt really expect to like either one of them ... but there was something about Matt. My friend Tara (who already had a girlfriend and a ( Read more... )

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Sometimes I think about what I would change, if I could go back in time and I think about the pain I felt and I thought about you and I thought about me and I thought about how much I cried and how much I loved you and how much I still love you I thought about how much I missed you and how much I still do ... and you know something? I wouldn't ( Read more... )

You might understand it intellectually, but I can't help how I feel. I stumbled onto the realization that you can never be happy and now that I've finally touched you ... I got a good look at the distance between you and me. I've realized that we're both seperate individuals. I know now, I can no longer go on without you, but you are able to go on ( Read more... )

*You kiss me gently as rain falls freely to the ground ( Read more... )