This weekend has been rough, i have this social anxiety it feels like. I want to meet new people, but yet I dont. I make plans and then have a hard time following through. Drinking has helped in the past, but I am avoiding that route all together when possible ( Read more... )

started to feel a litttle better by kistening to a podcast from nerdist interview with arnold!

life has been rough lately. keep feeling ups and downs. feeling trapped and lonely. its harder than i thought. i wish i wasnt single and wish i felt more attractive. no auto correct on this app.

lame.

It's probably been a week since i've written ( Read more... )

what a long few past days ( Read more... )

today was a fucked up day ( Read more... )

i guess it's fair to say that I burned my hands cupping the candle so close. no matter how hard i tried to shield the flame, it never burned hot enough to withstand a bit of wind ( Read more... )

today, i broke up with trista again. we started dating back last year in october more or less, and it feels like it has been rocky. some of the persistent problems are still there, but are slowly being corrected... but yet I find myself unable to hold on to it. like a candle that burns so soft that any whiff of air puts it out ( Read more... )

ARGH upset.

wish you could have been here when i needed hugs baby.

sorry your friends 'took your keys'. dammit whatever bs .

needed you
=C

Here I am in Kenai, AK. Here for aircraft rescue firefighting training that my county job has sent me. Surprising that I have actually gotten the chance to go. It could be the highlight of my job ( Read more... )