six months have passed, it was easy to let it slide afterall ( Read more... )

mom had back surgery about 4-5 weeks ago maybe now. it seems like wednesday 1am she had a stroke. she was taken to the emergency room via ambulance, where she continued to persist in an incoherent state where she remains today. it's heart breaking and scary, the feeling of losing someone you love. what if this was the last time i got to see her ( Read more... )

when i look back at some of my past writings in my journal, it is blatantly obvious that being overworked, amongst other influences, has absolutely destroyed my creativity. all work and no play makes jack a dull boy or so they say ( Read more... )

I must relinquish control to the short term destiny I have provided myself. A grave dug shallow but yet I lay comfortably, knowing that it would not be a quick death should I nap. I realize, that i must continue this effort of working in order to gain but just a mere footing to reach the next hold ( Read more... )

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wicked lies, truthful thighs
just another midnight high
reverbirations ringing, echoing in my ears
waves bouncing sideways
not knowing which way to turn
i follow them all
spin around mindlessness
it doesn't matter as long
asi i'm surfing the wave of energy
close my eyes
shake my head
let go
set sail
release!
catapult forward on this magic
all

recycled thoughts crafting scaffolding ( Read more... )

it's been seven months. i've been laid off from CIA, pulled my money out. started dating someone i am so so about (kari). had one motorcycle accident, I have gone officially one year without smoking (first hand!) and am still working 40hr weeks ( Read more... )

since jobs ( Read more... )

success ( Read more... )