I have been venting to the wrong people and fretting about stuff that irritates others. I've grown seriously insecure about all my friendships because of a series of harsh texts from my sister. I think I need to return to LJ for my sanity. Things were good for a long time and now they are better than ever, but I don't feel like I'm living better ( Read more... )

It's not just me being bitchy. While scentedwoods might be right about booze and meds, I don't think I'm all alone in the bitchfest. It just feels that way cause I get mad and Jeff gets martyred ( Read more... )

Lately, I have been a total bitch to Jeff and I have no explanation for why. Things aren't exactly stressful right now as I have an impending break between new and old job that should last 2 weeks. We're doing well financially. I am well fed and somewhat exercised. I'm medicated properly for all my illnesses. I can't figure it out. I have a ( Read more... )

I just called the hiring manager at feds to take back my acceptance and got the hard sell for the position, the agency, and the federal government itself as an employer. I also heard a mild smack down on the city as an employer. Damn it. Why am I finding this so hard? I made my choice, but I just need to exorcise my regret demons. I realize ( Read more... )

Jeff just called me and I announced that tonight is SNACK ATTACK. I explained I am hella menstuatey and stressed and require many snacks of tasty things tonight. And, that he is required to join me in SNACK ATTACK night. And we need pizza. The "and we need pizza" part caused some protest, but I explained there was no room for debate. I need ( Read more... )

Last night my mother's nose started bleeding profusely starting at 9 PM. At 10 PM we called 911; at 11 PM we were in UCSF hospital because she had been told there are PH specialists there; at 4:45 AM we were discharged with her nose still bleeding, no PH consultations, and poor medical attention at best. We spent most of those wee morning hours ( Read more... )

As I was walking out of the Dean's Office around noon today who should I see but my cousin Shivram and his wife Sujatha. It was a total fluke--they had no idea I worked at Stanford (I guess my mom never told them) and I had no idea they would be visiting that day (or that their son was attending summer camp on campus this week). It was a shock ( Read more... )

The wedding is days away. Days. I'm finally starting to get excited and even a little nervous. My family starts arriving tomorrow. There are small items to be done, but basically everything is ready; we even packed our honeymoon bags. Finally, my to-do lists seem to be getting shorter ( Read more... )

This weekend baby sister James is coming to town. WOO-HOO! I LOVE HER! She's coming tomorrow afternoon to help host my bridal shower on Saturday. Another WOO-HOO! There are something like 5 co-hosts(you might say 5.5 as Kameya, my flower girl, is also working on this party)for this thing and all seem super enthusiastic. Originally, James was ( Read more... )

I'm having difficulty focusing. I think it's Ok if I goof off a little as I've been on the ball and getting enough done up till this point, but I could be lying to myself. Sigh. Fingers crossed it's the former and not the latter ( Read more... )