I need to remember what I wanted from the very beginning and I cannot let comfort and stability distract me from what I worked so hard for.

I need to leave, leave, leave.

I decided to clear the cob webs from my livejournal and maybe post something, but instead I found this gem sitting in my drafts from many many months ago. It was quite optimistic which is a timely reminder to myself, that I can be positive sometimes...

( the entry i found in my drafts )

oh boy, what a weekend it was ( Read more... )

as of late, zee and i have been required to do more adulting -with work, school (him teaching, me studying), training, money things, family responsibilities etc. it has been hella tiring. but its ok because at the end of the day, i get to squeeze into a tiny hammock with my bestfriend and tell stories about how stupid life gets some days but can ( Read more... )

so how do i begin with 2015 ( Read more... )

I don't write a lot about what makes me happy because I might lose it.

But today I'll make an exception.

The most amazing moments of our relationship has always been those conversations we unexpectedly have. Like tonight, curled up next to you on the hammock perched between two endless blocks, the night sky- starless but beautiful and you, ( Read more... )

Some nights it hits me really hard. Probably because december and january were when we both got very lost and drowned in each other. So much that it was hard to swim back to the surface. but we had to. I don't know if you still come here, you probably dont. Sometimes I find myself wandering to that dusty corner in my head where I keep images and ( Read more... )

I don't quite know what is happening to me these days. I try very hard in school but it never translates. I am putting in a lot of effort but maybe that effort is not enough. But what is enough really? I dont ask myself if I understand things, all I do is just accept things as they are and I stopped questioning. Probably because I am tired, and I ( Read more... )

There are many things that I enjoy complaining about: 1. not being fit for rugby, 2. I'm relatively slow on the the field 3. I mistackle like I'm being paid for it 4. my grades aren't improving 5. my work is not progressing 6. basically just not good at doing life ( Read more... )

No matter how complicated it gets, i still want you.