lol fuck you yasmine

kate broke up with me on monday. i feel beyond sadness, i feel dead. i've never felt this broken. it's atrocious. i don't even want to talk about it, i just figured the one or two people who read my journal would like to know ( Read more... )

so, kate was lovely enough to push me to paint my room, after having planned it for two years. orange and green, orange and green, orange and green. well, when we first start dating, she picks a date, august 5, for us to paint and rearrange my room. august 5 comes, and we buy the paint and get cracking. we got the two green walls done, but couldn't ( Read more... )

here are some female names i adore: tessa, bailey, stephanie, leta, samantha, lexi, emily, cara, khala, mara, andrea, kolby, morgan, claire, jacqueline/jackie, natalie, maria, lily, margot, danielle, kate, erika, audrey, amelie, yuki, stephanie, stephanie, stephanie, annalyn, kylie, erin, naomi, siara, keira, scarlett, charlotte, adriana, zooey, ( Read more... )

it's completely understandably fair that tom would still blame only me because i wrote that letter, even though i thought i made it clear in said letter that i wasn't the only one thinking this. of course, what was i thinking?, of course i'd be the only one blamed. it seems fairly obvious that tom didn't even consider the words in that ramble, ( Read more... )

i feel like things are working out pretty well. despite the fact that new york university is still sucking out any chance i had of having lots of money to spend for the rest of my life, the fact that i signed up and got an @nyu.edu email and am now part of that network on facebook (it makes things so real!) made me feel pretty good. i hung out with ( Read more... )

so, cecil's not coming for the summer anymore, because i'm a big asshole who just realised how much he's going to need to work this summer because his number one priority is getting into nyu, which costs a hell of a lot of money. oh, that's okay, it's totally acceptable to not take in this fact at all, it's completely my fault. of course, coming ( Read more... )

i owe an apology to tom, whose misconduct during prom led me to be a little more than angry at him, which i took out on him during my incredibly lengthy prom entry that i wrote up yesterday. it was a little out of hand, and i'm really sorry for it. i'm not looking for any sort of recognition for my apology, i just felt bad (and rightly so) and ( Read more... )

so, today in church, something totally weird happened. sean and alex and i usually go downstairs before the sermon/ceremony/whatever begins, to get a drink from the pop machine (usually it's yoohoos all around), maybe a snack or some food or something, maybe go to the bathroom. but today alex was with jerry who was either already inside (because ( Read more... )

in complete contrast to that, i'm super excited about prom. searching for my prom tux on friday, kristen and i and tom went to folchi's and figured going all the way out to west chester to browse wasn't worth it, so we decided to go to soho's, a japanese bistro a/k/a hibachi restaurant, wherein we discussed prom things eventually, tom saying he was ( Read more... )