Have you ever felt alone? Not that "No one understands me so please everyone, pay attention to me!" type of loneliness. I'm talking about the feeling that with all of the support and even love in the world, you're still alone. That even having so much in common with people, it isn't enough to form a relationship. That spending so many years ( Read more... )

       I wonder why I always feel so bad when I say no to someone. Logically, I know that I shouldn't because I don't owe that to anyone. Nevertheless, I still do. It feels as if I have all these things that I need to be doing for people, but I can never deliver. Especially those times when it seems like I don't want to. I guess empathy just gets ( Read more... )

       Okay, so I did some stuff with someone last night. I feel dirty today and I already took a shower last night. I'm gonna take another one really soon. The person wasn't disgusting or anything, rather quite nice looking to be truthful. The name was Jeff. Jeff from Costa Mesa. He sure did have a nice place, as one would expect someone to have ( Read more... )

I had such a delightful discussion with a very insightful person on the internets today.

He was one of those "rarely" seen and heard of, racist assholes.

Because, you know we don't have any of those these days ;)

( But yes, enjoy... )

DirecTv guy came at 9 this morning

No one told me they were supposed to come

Derrick was at school

Woke me up from my sleep

Let DirecTv guy in

I thought DirecTv guy was hot

One thing lead to another

We kind of did stuff

What a weird morning...

Maybe what mother says is true.

It's all pointless.

(Cue the world's smallest violin being played by the very diligent and very much employed, smallest musician.)


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Sleepless

Mother never came home

She never left Father's

Stressed

Need to be on hallucinogens

Need sleep :(

Damn it!!! I told myself that I wouldn't smoke any while I was at Monique's and that's exactly what I just did. I told myself that I wanted sleep tonight but looks like that was a pipe dream. I'm so bored now and I wish that I had someone to talk to. I have too many ideas right now and not enough ears to receive ( Read more... )

       The backlash of the past 2 nights activities has finally manifested itself this early morning. I admit that I was expecting it, but the only unknown was the moment it would rear its ugly head. Before getting into these recreations, I was aware of both the pros and cons to follow. Favorably, it allowed me to supersede the subconscious ( Read more... )

The wheels have been set into motion.

Mission: Divorce

Location: Due South; Down the crapper

Target: The institution known as "Marriage"

Objective: To successfully begin the process of divorce. You will have 5 hours to take out target with the Assault Rifle and scope provided. Your ammunition: "court paper" bullets