I might be homeless within the coming months. Mother's talking about retiring and going back to the Philippines for a little while. Father's still going to live up north. Derrick might be going with mother, not sure. Don't really know what to feel personally right now. I don't feel anything one way or the other about the situation. I know that I ( Read more... )

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       I wish I was able to do more for others than I do now. Unfortunately, I'm not in any position to be able to do that. Wanting to do it and being able to do it are two different things. If I had the resources to spread around I would gladly share, but I can't, because I don't. I can barely get things going for myself. I want to resolve all the ( Read more... )

       Mother left for father's today, or rather yesterday. I opted not to accompany and she accepted. Didn't really feel like seeing father. Haven't since Tuesday when he last called. It was my birthday and he called to wish me a good one. That was fine until he decided to tell me that I'm getting old (doesn't really bother me) and that my life is ( Read more... )

Drowning myself in Valhalla seems to be the way to go. Helps me to escape the current reality I reside in as of the moment. Lights are on but nobody's home.

I swear that my last final today really tried to (with pinpoint precision) rub me out. They were some really in depth questions. Just way too involved. I got through it nonetheless. All in all, I think I did well on my finals. Hopefully, my grade will reflect it. Father left this past Sunday and apparently we're supposed be driving out there on ( Read more... )

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So I'm on the verge of another breakdown. Not sure exactly when but it's pretty much all coming to head. What's new, right? I wonder where I'll be and what I'm doing when it happens. Very interesting. Didn't do so good today, even though I knew I could do much better. I'm always getting in my own way when it comes down to it. Can't blame anyone ( Read more... )

I've been having many a sleepless nights lately, due in part to high volumes of non-stop thought coupled with some external influences. I know that no matter what I do, it is futile to even try to stop my stubborn brain from streaming thoughts. I just wish it didn't hurt so much physically as it does mentally. I'm damaged, I'm torn, yet I'm still ( Read more... )

Greetings everyone who has left this world for greener pastures, and by pastures I mean, "Myspace". It has been too long since I last updated. I think I'll give you a little slice of my story so far ( Read more... )