Comments | porcelainskye55: I'm Half Alive But I Feel Mostly Dead....

porcelainskye55

I'm Half Alive But I Feel Mostly Dead....

Jun 13, 2005 23:47

Lately, I have felt extremely sexually and romantically anorexic, it's like I cant complain about not having a guy, and never having guy... because I don't want one, well I do, but he is not real, no one alive can live up to the guy I've created in my head, and every time I think someone has, I'm not the girl they want... even though they think I' ( Read more... )

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jessykelly June 14 2005, 07:05:40 UTC

it seems like you're searching for something like the meaning of life here! lol i love you babe. just find out the things you really want. find what you have a passion for and focus on that. changing is good but changing for other people isn't you. find what's in your heart.

bitch. ;)

porcelainskye55 June 14 2005, 08:28:02 UTC

lol, you make me happy... I know thingshave to be for me, and always thought they were, but lately I realize, that I try to live up to expectations... I just need to deal with not doing so, I know where my "passion" lies. Lol I always seem like Im searching for the meaning of life, I'm good at over-analyzing hehe.

jessykelly June 14 2005, 07:06:21 UTC

btw... great jewel song

porcelainskye55 June 14 2005, 08:29:35 UTC

I know, before the intuition days... I still think she is amazin with lyrics, but her last CD was just ot the same...

heslikenirvana June 14 2005, 17:03:49 UTC

:o( I think I almost know how you feel (I'm sure I don't know EXACTLY what you're going through right now), I felt that way a little bit this year-- issues with the type of person that I'm becoming, when I REALLY don't want to be that person-- and two summers ago-- issues with feeling like there is no POSSIBLY satisfying guy out there.

And I really suck at cheering people up... Especially when I guess it's the kind of thing you have to overcome yourself. Oh well. Growing up can suck dick, dude. I hope you feel better soon. ♥

porcelainskye55 June 15 2005, 07:13:36 UTC

lol thanks

i_love_nacho June 14 2005, 17:39:16 UTC

ooo honey!!!!! ill find u a guy who worships u like the goddess that u are... ur in my heart and mind and prays ..
i miss u like a fat kid misses cake at fat camp. (bad joke ur NOT fat,,, ur taller than me and u probablly weigh less than me)
i luvvv uuuu
kisses rose

porcelainskye55 June 15 2005, 07:14:15 UTC

lol lov ya toots

oddflavoredloli June 14 2005, 22:55:39 UTC

i know how u feel i go through the same thing.

porcelainskye55 June 15 2005, 07:14:39 UTC

yep it's stinky